snowball in hell

wanderer

well it's june but still mercifully raining off & on, no summer yet.. sorry, but we're vampires here & detest the blazing sun & heat, a little light is ok, but i'll take the dark & a/c till autumn rolls around..

& rpg games. ah yes.. my great escape from the summertime blues over all the years has been in fantasy videogame worlds, & my son raven has followed in my tradition well..

it all started back in the old camper in the driveway when he was a toddler & i put that nes controller in his hands, thinking he'd love the cause & effect of running & jumping mario along..

um, yeah, he did love it! the rest is history.. i'll always remember him & mr dad coming in to watch me fight zeromus in final fantasy at the end, we all had marble fudge ice-cream & it left such an impression on him, it wasn't long before we got him mario paint & a few years later i introduced him to mystic quest as a beginner level fantasy rpg.. <3

he feared the undead kobolds pictured in my shadowgate game guides too & i worry i set up his lifelong zombie phobia due to that?

so eventually one summer of old we decided to tape our own 'game gallery' youtube videos of all our games, way back in the day when youtube was novel..

nostalgia gamers please come over to my youtube channel & check it out, everything from nes to xbox360, snippets of all our favorites & commentary.. 

it's down in my playlists here..

our game gallery includes kitties of course <3

& much more like this..

i also keep an extensive ghost pix game screenshot album of my own playthroughs here.. (sound up for our cool retro gaming mix)

these screenshots are from some of my favorites like bloodborne..

i do love the from software games & have played them to 100%/platinum wherever possible..

the ghost pix album starts out way back in elder scrolls oblivion & encompasses all the elder scrolls & dark souls games, fallout, american mcgee's alice, fable, etc on & on, & i'm still updating it..

i'm a wanderer & i've lived in these places basically, with my kitties right along side me through so much of them <3

i've even set up a lost & found toy shop in the post apoc world of fallout as well as my kitty sanctuary..

i'm often a cat myself..

& always a vampire ;)

i'm always looking for another beautiful place to get lost..

as i deal with all my issues..

& raven has his own youtube gaming channel now here.. (please subscribe)

he's an ocd completionist & is really exceptionally good.. it's been said he's so good that even his mom is good ;)

recently i invited him into my elden ring playthrough to help with a big battle..

so here's that capture for your enjoyment..

i'm getting into all the fashion of elden ring now, not unlike i did in bloodborne..

what do you think?

so i've changed my look from the basic astrologer's outfit to fia's robes
(fia - deathbed companion & giver of hugs) posted about it here at the lost & found yesterday too..

if you're a fellow gaming enthusiast be sure to check out my other blog, the lost & found toy blog, for extensive videogame posts & coverage, just click on videogames in the category list in the sidebar..

videogames are the closest thing i can find to a cure for the summertime blues..

ok, well there is winter.

more in the links & comments..

bren snowmoon/ghost

2019

here's another diabolical selfie to update..
(mr dad says toxic made this same face in our old home movies..lol)

my first glimpse of 2019 was of the crescent moon & venus out my bedroom window.. we haven't had any snow here yet in portland, but the mountain is gorgeous & white & now we are surrounded by freezing fog, everything's covered in frost, so i'm hopeful ~
new year's day moon

we're getting alot done on innsmouth house & i'm still painting my acrylic abstracts despite freezing hands..

my only resolution is to try to worry less this year.. lol

lyrics of the day:

all the holes at once are coming alive
set free, out of sight & out of mind
they're lonely and they're prey
the one you light your fires to keep away
is crawling out upon its belly
and all you have to do is say  yes..
all the birds stay up in the trees
all the fish swim down to the deep
they're lonely and they're prey
i am here
come to me before it's too late
the one you light your fires to keep away
is crawling out upon its belly
all you have to do is say   yes.

rorschach

bren/ghost

earsplitter

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welcome to my migraine.

bullet with butterfly wings/smashing pumpkins

the world is a vampire sent to drain
secret destroyers hold you up to the flames
and what do i get for my pain?
betrayed desires and a piece of the game..
even though i know.. i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold like old job..
despite all my rage i am still just
a rat in a cage
despite all my rage i am still just
a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost
can never be saved..
despite all my rage i am still just
a rat in a cage..

now i'm naked..
nothing but an animal..
but can you fake it for just one more show?
and what do you want?
i want a change..
and what have you got
when you feel the same?
tell me i'm the only one
tell me there's no other one
jesus was an only son
tell me i'm the chosen one
jesus was an only son for you..

despite all my rage i am still just
a rat in a cage
despite all my rage i am still just
a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost
can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just
a rat in a cage
and i still believe that i cannot be saved..
and i still believe that i cannot be saved..
and i still believe that i cannot be saved..
and i still believe that i cannot be saved.

zero/smashing pumpkins

my reflection.. dirty mirror
is no connection to myself..
i'm your lover.. i'm your zero
i'm the face in your dreams of glass..
so save your prayers
for when we're really gonna need 'em..
throw all your cares and fly..
wanna go for a ride?

she's the one for me..
she's all i really need.. oh yeah..
she's the one for me..
emptiness is loneliness
and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness
and god is empty.. just like me.

intoxicated with the madness..
i'm in love with my sadness..
bullshit fakers.. enchanted kingdoms..
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth..
i never let on that i was on a sinking ship..
i never let on that i was down.

you blame yourself for what you can't ignore..
you blame yourself for wanting more..
she's the one for me..
she's all i really need.. oh yeah..
she's the one for me..
she's my one and only.