winter's coming, my favorite time of year, we stock up like all other creatures, for the holidays, for the freeze, for whatever's ahead..
we've all been sick here for weeks, despite flu shots, & i've been lost down in the undead ditches of dark souls 2 as i recuperate & force-feed, my therapy cat beside me hard at work.. snug
it's too cold to paint, but it is lovely sleeping weather, a perfect cure for my insomnia & bad dreams,
i think i'm going into another hibernation..
i went through an unexpected trauma one morning as i noticed our neighbors were trimming limbs off of one of the tall pine trees out front in our shared yard.. soon we heard house-shaking thuds & were horrified to realize they were cutting the huge tree Down entirely, leaving only the smaller of the 2 trees nearest our front window.. i can't explain how devastating this was to me, to change my landscape in this way so suddenly without notice, to kill the tree for seemingly no reason, i was upset beyond reason about it.
i left a note in their mailbox asking why they hadn't at least let us know beforehand & making it clear that the other tree was there to stay, & the following day they caught us on our way out & apologized & explained, it seems the roots were doing damage to their driveway & front porch, causing voids in the yard & cracks.. ok, but communication would've gone a long way toward reducing the shock, you know? i cried for that tree. & now i panic whenever i hear vehicle sounds out front thinking they're coming for the other one somehow..
i photographed birds in that tree & depended on it to help filter sunlight into our vampire lair frontroom..
i'm still estranged from family, & my sister is the same, drs & conservators remain useless as we approach 4 years of her in limbo.. i pray each night for her to cross over please..
so anyway i'm feeling the cold as we head into another winter, i lose track of dates & days & feel kinda lost..
i've left an extensive system of breadcrumb trails throughout the ghost gallery quarantine,
but there are ravens..
dissociation
ave maria
maiden mild
listen to a maiden's prayer
thou canst hear through from the wild
thou canst save amid despair
safe may we sleep beneath thy care
though banish'd, outcast and reviled
oh maiden, hear my lonely prayer
mother, hear a suppliant child
ave maria
ave maria, undefiled
the flinty couch we now must share
shall seem this down of eider piled
if thy protection hover there
the murky cavern's heavy air
shall breathe of balm if thou hast smiled
maiden hear a maiden's prayer
mother, list a suppliant child
ave maria
ave maria, stainless styled
foul demons of the earth and air
from this their wonted haunt exiled
shall flee before thy presence fair
we bow us to our lot of care
beneath thy guidance reconciled
hear for a maid a maiden's prayer
and for a father hear a child
ave maria
frozen charlotte
ave maria
gratia plena dominus tecum
benedicta tu in mulieribus
et benedictus fructus ventris tui, Iesus
sancta maria, mater dei
ora pro nobis peccatoribus
nunc, et in hora mortis nostrae
amen
ave maria
to be continued in the comments..
