summer's definitely here. normally once it gets this hot we vampires tuck into the dark & hibernate until halloween season..
but alot has been going on here & it's hard for me to even talk about it even here at my secret old ghost blog..
my last comments here were after mr dad & his friend gerald climbed to the top of beacon rock over on the washington side of the gorge, such a gorgeous day, something that's been on his bucket list since he was a kid, i didn't want to climb it so i told him i'd only let him go with a friend, fortunately gerald's an emt, but all was well.. (click here for the pix..) he wore the gopro too so we now have what feels like our own personal episode of oregon field guide of the trek, very cool..
but then a week later my bigfoot husband had a medical emergency that was the most terrifying experience i've ever had, could've died, & we've all been trying to deal with ptsd/trauma issues ever since.
he works downstairs in his office & came up for lunch as usual, used the bathroom, but then i heard him calling out to me faintly, in distress, & i found him passing out unable to breathe. so there are graphic details here i'm going to skip, but he literally crashed over headfirst unmoving & hit his face/head, i was sure he was dead. but i reacted by thumping him on the back thinking, heart? airway? it eventually brought him back slightly to consciousness & dan was on the phone calling 911.. so the paramedics arrived so fast i am so thankful, this was all very drawn out & traumatic & ended up with him alive but then hospitalized for days following what was clearly a pulmonary embolism.
i have to say this was a shocking wake-up call for us all, dan & i driving & masking & back out among humans, john now on blood thinners back home in recovery having to let us help with the heavy lifting this life calls for rather than just pushing through everything like the sasquatch he is.. his friends have been such a blessing & therapy in itself visiting & supportive.. i've talked with my good old therapist/life coach, licia, through it all & relayed her supportive messages to the guys as well as we go in & out of ptsd trauma states & then start trying to get back to any sense of 'normal'.. so appreciative of these good people around us..
so i've also had to deal with stress induced migraine with aura after many years, & i'm still obviously struggling to feel like anything will be ok, my insecurity/trauma issues were right there even before this occurred, even things that comfort me can be so tinged with meloncholy as well due to my lost kitty girls & family members.. even posting here reminds me of my old pal emma. miss you em..
but i've posted cool stuff at the lost & found this weekend & made my retro 3 layer orange jello today for the guys.. we're still here.. alice is a comfort to us all staying right close by.. dan & i are escaping as we can into the elden ring dlc shadow of the erdtree.. the world feels insane, but all we can do is vote & fight for what we know is right, be good stewards of each other, all life & the earth.. pray & have faith. that's what i'll be doing..
our house made it safely through the 4th of july fireworks, no new fires in the gorge..
i'll post more later in the comments as usual..
bren/ghost
ps - vote joe!!!
