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  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

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ghost

afraid we had an unmerry xmas. cold moon migraine & crash into depression, health issue that drove me to set a dr's appt. it's been so long since i went in for a dr's appt that i don't remember?? doing a bit better, telling myself 'don't look into the abyss, don't look into the abyss..'
:(

ghost

rough start into the new year, one thing after the other, healthstuff, (physical & mental) a water gnat invasion thanks to record high temps for this time of year here & standing rainwater, a mouse issue in the garage, & now i've found out my niece's little boy has covid..
oh no!
i escape reality with great regularity, into eso here: https://www.youtube.com/@ghostatthegate/playlists
checking out audio online at our library & on hoopla, & best of all was getting my signed xmas card from sid krofft! ~ https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2024/01/happy-new-year.html
i still find it surreal us wishing each other happy new year! hope it's better than the last year.. please?
too many weird fun after xmas ads to list.. ok but i will:

https://www.amazon.com/Tree-Buddees-Thrilled-Halloween-Decoration/dp/B0B4KNWQQD/ref=rvi_d_sccl_2/143-4697478-9301050?pd_rd_w=GlPOa&content-id=amzn1.sym.f5690a4d-f2bb-45d9-9d1b-736fee412437&pf_rd_p=f5690a4d-f2bb-45d9-9d1b-736fee412437&pf_rd_r=WNTGQ560A9QYYWRF1337&pd_rd_wg=BBEGM&pd_rd_r=86d6a9f8-7f0e-4bbb-95f5-37858547ae6f&pd_rd_i=B0B4KNWQQD&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/Tree-Buddees-Halloween-Christmas-Ornaments/dp/B0971FK75T/ref=rvi_d_sccl_5/143-4697478-9301050?pd_rd_w=v2Wzy&content-id=amzn1.sym.f5690a4d-f2bb-45d9-9d1b-736fee412437&pf_rd_p=f5690a4d-f2bb-45d9-9d1b-736fee412437&pf_rd_r=MAB6YHZFABAWRJBXK5R7&pd_rd_wg=siC1a&pd_rd_r=ed160c89-e875-4e83-a029-bf714a30af4b&pd_rd_i=B0971FK75T&psc=1

https://www.temu.com/1-2-3-pairs-unisex-adorable-holding-hands-magnetic-crew-socks-comfy-breathable-casual-thermal-socks-winter-autumn-g-601099524760361.html?top_gallery_url=https%3A%2F%2Fimg.kwcdn.com%2Fproduct%2FFancyalgo%2FVirtualModelMatting%2F3f8394a3d944c0ad03759f118281c945.jpg&spec_gallery_id=2033125298&refer_page_sn=10037&refer_source=10017&freesia_scene=8&_oak_freesia_scene=8&_oak_rec_ext_1=MTk3&refer_page_el_sn=200595&_x_mmid=f9e1d69d866748d2a9edfc397473288fCHN1&_x_msgid=211-20231230-11-B-683154856827625472-449-O4jy25ew&_x_src=mail&_x_sid=BANNER&_x_sessn_id=eea8nib32h&refer_page_name=shopping_cart&refer_page_id=10037_1703973525888_hne8f5n72f
https://www.temu.com/three-dimensional-swan-knit-gloves-cute-contrast-color-elastic-mittens-autumn-winter-unisex-coldproof-warm-gloves-g-601099529236204.html?top_gallery_url=https%3A%2F%2Fimg.kwcdn.com%2Fproduct%2FFancyalgo%2FVirtualModelMatting%2Fdf40b8d69f407c5298b5e81b6997567a.jpg&spec_gallery_id=2038856070&refer_page_sn=10005&refer_source=0&freesia_scene=1&_oak_freesia_scene=1&_oak_rec_ext_1=NDQ3&refer_page_el_sn=200024&_x_mmid=f9e1d69d866748d2a9edfc397473288fCHN1&_x_msgid=211-20231230-11-B-683154856827625472-449-O4jy25ew&_x_src=mail&_x_sid=BANNER&_x_sessn_id=eea8nib32h&refer_page_name=home&refer_page_id=10005_1703972362167_rj48uyto1z
https://www.temu.com/a-pair-of-autumn-and-winter-dress-up-three-dimensional-shark-gloves-warm-mittens-knitted-gloves-g-601099513745272.html?top_gallery_url=https%3A%2F%2Fimg.kwcdn.com%2Fproduct%2FFancyalgo%2FVirtualModelMatting%2Ff4ea686d6480295440e216d8d42d1920.jpg&spec_gallery_id=11323777&refer_page_sn=10005&refer_source=0&freesia_scene=1&_oak_freesia_scene=1&_oak_rec_ext_1=OTk4&refer_page_el_sn=200024&_x_mmid=f9e1d69d866748d2a9edfc397473288fCHN1&_x_msgid=211-20231230-11-B-683154856827625472-449-O4jy25ew&_x_src=mail&_x_sid=BANNER&_x_sessn_id=eea8nib32h&refer_page_name=home&refer_page_id=10005_1703972362167_rj48uyto1z
ok now.. self control... ..

ghost

still here after the traumatic arctic blast & power out for 12 hours..

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/arctic-blast-january-2024.html

oliver & new backyard feral boy we call mr paws got through the winter event & are getting their food ok too..
& birds are using the feeder we filled under our kitchen deck <3 everything's covered in ice..

i'm not a spring person, but this year i'm looking forward to it.

such a pretty house
& such a pretty garden
& no alarms & no surprises
no alarms & no surprises
no alarms & no surprises please? - radiohead

p.s. we found out our generator battery does much better in cold than it did in summer to keep our fridge running, i suggested to the guys that maybe we should put the generator In the fridge, maybe we'd get infinite power? but it doesn't fit.. hm, maybe if we took all the food out? then it would work forever.. for absolutely no purpose whatsoever..
my science seems to be faulty here..
;)

ghost

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/colin-livestream-with-alice.html

colin's livestream on insta this morning made the ice thaw feel much warmer <3 the comments were fun with other kitties & decemberists fans singing (& crying) along to our favorite oldies..
his power was out for 24 hours in his portland neighborhood!
i'm recovering hopefully from all my latest trauma? noticed i've lost a few pounds.. :/

ghost

so it appears our arctic blast winter storm event has finally ended? ice & east winds pulled down half the lower branches on one side of one of the tall spruce trees in our backyard, but nothing flew off the house.. (ok ice sheets slid off the roof yesterday but nothing's broken that we can tell..) we're still awaiting the arrival of our extra generator battery, hopefully mail & deliveries are back on schedule now that temps are a bit more normal? i did end up reaching out to my 'life coach' during all the threat of power out over & over as i kept feeling myself slip in & out of some kind of anxiety/trauma state..

raven took this pic out our front window of a neighbor's flag, feels like our state of the union right now? https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/state-of-the-union.html

fun ads: https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-wizard-of-oz-ruby-slippers-enamel-pin/31328464.html?mr:trackingCode=7CBCF2D0-9686-EE11-812F-0050569437F6&mr:referralID=NA&cm_mmc=DIS-_-CRT-_-273118-_-11001631-_-pch.com&cto_pld=9RGbekg8AABPGcwqmaLsPg

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p.s. i need this doorbell. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3nXSSAbjbFc

ghost

big blowup with my husband yesterday put me in my place, feels like shades of the dim past.

lyrics of the are day from mr smith ~

last hour

here's the army that you mowed
to the ground
& the bodies you left lying around
talking it out the last hour
i'm through trying now
it's a big relief
i'll be staying down
where no one else gonna give me grief
mess me around
just make it over
your opinion was the law of the land
the single thing that i could always understand
i lived it out from hour to hour
the only thing that never really changed
you bend me all around
& dragged me down
at the end of the day
don't keep me around
just make it over
i've been thinking of the things
that i missed
situations that i passed up for this
one way love i took for ours
i'm through trying now
it's a big relief
i'll be staying down
i wasn't good at being a thief
more like a clown
make it over..

i'm trying to go into essential hibernation mode, but the water project is now 12 hours of non-stop noise each day & i'm going insane.
looking for an emergency exit.

my snowcave ~
http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgallerysnowcave.html

from a poison well ~
http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgalleryfromapoisonwell.html

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