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  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

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May 28, 2023

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ghost

all time hottest may on record here, followed by a cool start to june at least.. with the increase in mosquitos we're experiencing like much of the rest of the world due to climate change i'm just fine with staying in & avoiding the heat & sun & humanity as i am a sun allergic vampire & am allergic to mosquito bites as well :o working on mini house updates now..

& as i wind up my (third) playthrough of skyrim (this time the anniversary edition) i am enjoying the exploits i've played around with so much! since i'm at the end i used my alchemy & enchanting skills to create some rather ridiculously effective items & am essentially bulletproof as you can see from my latest youtubes here: :D https://www.youtube.com/@ghostatthegate/videos

fun flashback friday favorite post today at the lost & found toys blog too: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2023/06/flashback-friday-favorite-alices-adventures-in-wonderland-1897.html

& do we all need one of these?https://www.michaels.com/product/running-press-mini-edition-ufo-cow-abduction-D368501S?cm_mmc=PaidDisplay-_-Criteo-_-2023-_-Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023_12_1266042_358135486_185783129&utm_campaign=2023&utm_medium=PaidDisplay&utm_source=Criteo&utm_content=Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023&dclid=CNq8ld38pP8CFeTt5wMdG94PuA

oh my there's that full moon.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/strawberry-butterfly-moon-and-alice-june-2023.html

ghost

p.s. love when someone i read & follow likes my comments ;)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CtG6Ot7LN6w/ (joyce & her chickens!)
i mentioned how it seemed like the chickens were soon coming home to roost ;) so to speak <3

ghost

fun post at the #lostandfoundtoys #blog for our alice's 2nd birthday :D
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2023/06/happy-birthday-alice.html
& i'm still filling up my youtube channel with short cool skyrim captures until the fallout 4 anniversary edition game drops ;)
https://www.youtube.com/@ghostatthegate/videos
(wild horses & lunar moths.. please subscribe!)

some weather predictions forecast a big deluge headed our way like the one that ended the long drought down in socal? yes! please bring the deluge :D

p.s. stock up on popcorn, i'll be watching msnbc tomorrow ;)
https://twitter.com/adgirlMM/status/1668290988845199360?s=20
(did you see the photocopier right with all those boxes? throw away the fucking key!!)

ghost

dealing with #migraine at the moment, but wanted to note here that joyce used an interesting phrase for the title of her last substack ;) https://joycevance.substack.com/p/chickens-come-home-to-roost/comments

ghost

p.s. i need this. not for halloween, just year-round: https://www.michaels.com/product/39-halloween-black-cat-go-away-porch-sign-D656353S?cm_mmc=PaidDisplay-_-Criteo-_-2023-_-Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023_12_1266042_357844565_185783129&utm_campaign=2023&utm_medium=PaidDisplay&utm_source=Criteo&utm_content=Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023&dclid=CJecuMaLyP8CFYSv7AodMjIASA

just to be clear, black cats, Any cats Are Always welcome!
https://www.michaels.com/product/39-halloween-unwelcome-porch-sign-coffin-shape-D656358S?cm_mmc=PaidDisplay-_-Criteo-_-2023-_-Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023_12_1266042_357844565_185783129&utm_campaign=2023&utm_medium=PaidDisplay&utm_source=Criteo&utm_content=Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023&dclid=CInfn_CLyP8CFYEXrQYd-D4HRw

these porch signs would be for the People, that knock on my door despite the bright red No Solicitors sign :( https://www.michaels.com/product/39-halloween-unwelcome-porch-sign-with-spider-webs-D656356S?cm_mmc=PaidDisplay-_-Criteo-_-2023-_-Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023_12_1266042_357844565_185783129&utm_campaign=2023&utm_medium=PaidDisplay&utm_source=Criteo&utm_content=Conversions_FeedAllProducts_Photo1302023&dclid=CM7o5q2MyP8CFQaEYgodANELJA

someone would probably just steal them though..

ghost

my hubby's bday appropriately coincides within the week of dad's day, & he's enjoying his homemade blackberry pie ala mode & bbq'd burgers & potato salad over these pleasantly cool days here before summer officially begins.. not long ago his old childhood friend invited him to come visit him in scotland, but he honestly hates flying (& it's a 14 hour flight!) also he couldn't get his passport in time anyway, so his best friends messaged him happy bday & sent him cool pix today from edinburgh where he's working on a really fascinating scientific research project.. (he's a cool nerd!) as someone with english/scot/irish roots i've always had an interest in going there but likely never will, so this is the next best thing? ;) pix here in our current album: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/jeb-in-edinburg-northumberland-robert.html

my hubby also passed on my request that he sing a certain beatles song for me today.. lol.. oh well, i assured him i will still need him & in fact will still feed him.. ;)
he seemed to have a good day <3
i had a good day too, in part because the smile came out with a new song & art video i love.. it's up here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBtJ9_zTqdE

i picked out what i think thom's saying here & i can relate, as usual..

bending hectic

i'm changing down the gears
i'm slamming on the brakes
a vintage softtop from the 60s
i'm coming to a bend now
skidding 'round the hairpin
a sheer drop down the italian mountainside
& time is kinda frozen
& you're gazing at the view
& i swear i'm seeing double
noone's gonna bring me down
no, no way, no how
i'm letting go of the wheel
'cause it might be as well
it might be as well
i've got these slings
i've got these arrows
i force myself to..
i've got these slings
i've got these arrows
i force myself to turn, turn..
the ground is coming for me now
we've gone over the edge
if you have something to say
say it now
no one's gonna bring me down
no, no way & no how
i'm letting go of the wheel
despite these slings
despite these arrows
i force myself to
despite these slings
despite these arrows
i force myself to turn, turn..

p.s. i added another tin sign to our home decor, this time it's pebbles from fallout! my home/bedroom/bathroom now feels like my beloved vault 11 :D i'll have to post about it this weekend over at the lost & found?

update: i did! https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2023/06/flashback-friday-favorite-fallout-week.html

ghost

i always dread the 4th of july, just due to childhood trauma & risk of fire, i'm hoping i'll feel better waking up on the morning of the 5th when our home is hopefully still intact? also i have a zoom dr's appt on the 3rd, only time available & of course coinciding with the big full moon & potentially a migraine for me.. just to add insult to injury i just got my jury duty notice in the mail. i'm not going. i'll talk to my dr about that as well as my health issues. we have a good family dr thankfully, but i can't help but feel stressed out with my appt approaching, i've heard people even calling it 'medical trauma' like it's now officially a diagnosis. i completely get it after all i've been through & been close witness to (family members..) trying to stay hopeful & not crash. i'm playing out the last meager glitchy bits of skyrim anniversary edition waiting patiently for fallout anniversary edition to drop & grant me escape from summer.. i miss vault 11 ;)
once i win the pch contest we're going to get ourselves an underground bomb shelter where we can hide from extremes of temperature & possible apocalyptic future scenarios.. but even as reclusive isophiliac vampires it gets kinda lonely..
miss you, em <3

ps. will be posting about the moon all weekend at the lost & found blog.. starting here: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2023/06/flashback-friday-favorite-the-stars.html

ghost

lyrics of the day are going way back to my first days here creating this ghost blog & posting up elliott smith lyrics daily:

satellite

while the hands are pointing
up midnight
you're a question mark
coming after people
you watch collide
you can ask what you want to
the satellite
'cause the names you drop
are ice in my veins
& for all you know
you're the only one
who finds it strange
when they call it
a lover's moon
the satellite
'cause it acts
just like lovers do
the satellite
a burned out world
you know
staying up all night
the satellite

sad old light..
the rose moon peeked in at me late in the night while elliott played appropriately in the background quietly..

https://youtu.be/o-yIv4tHgLI

my moon ~ https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/my-moon.html

from a poison well ~ http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgalleryfromapoisonwell.html

ghost

#4thofjuly #migraine #ghostcloset #alice #antifashion #cats #kitty #mentalhealth

as i mentioned in my last comments i am not a great fan of the 4th of july, for several reasons, but here we are. & i gotta say i'm feeling under the weather. i survived my zoom dr's appt last eve while dealing with a slight headache, understandable for me on a full moon, but then by nightfall it Slammed in as a full-tilt left temple migraine & made me feel really awful. this morning i'm less in pain & more in distress as i feel lightheaded, dizzy, anxious, out of breath, neck muscles feel pulled & tense, it turns out this is a supermoon. just great. i feel it. hope it subsides soon? i'm staying in & keeping cool & hoping my bp stablizes here, please? here i thought i was doing better, even told my dr so.. ?
anyway i did post an update to my last ghostcloset antifashion posts over at the lost & found blog, since alice was in a playful mood, she even booped the camera & left a smudge: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2023/05/ghost-closet-antifashion-alice-in-wonderland.html
i hate fireworks. & they started before 7 a.m. here already this morning, have been going off for days :/
wish me luck, i need it.

ghost

still dealing with migraine, but our house still stands ;)
it's too hot! sorry, but summer feels like one long cruelly hideous hotflash to me.. lol
i'm hiding out in my cool vampire suite..\

p.s. on my wishlist ~ https://mysterious.americanmcgee.com/products/plushie-dreadfuls-dissociation-rabbit-plush-stuffed-animal?_pos=1&_psq=Dissociation&_ss=e&_v=1.0&_kx=EeHPFQYDGmIogcg2WxhL04vnJRuN5iyLdiIT7So6tPVFCPNAlLr8oc0RmrKkbWTq.WRQdEu

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