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  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

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December 17, 2022


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#ghostcloset #antifashion #kitty #cats #noboringsocks #lostandfoundtoys #blog

the ghost closet antifashion winter update continues at the lost & found today -
(shh, don't tell, this one has a little visit from alice <3)

these will continue through xmas as i'll be posting right through the end of 2022 there.. there will be sad ghosts, closet skeletons, crying monsters, vampires & migraine monsters i assure you..
& more socks inevitably.

it's frosty cold here with freezing nights, i'd love some more snow? right now my m.o. is to 'stay home, stay well & stay warm'..


#winter #storm #ice #snow #ghostcloset #antifashion #lostandfoundtoys #post #emilystrangeposse #pnw

scary merry xmas continues as the big storm blows in, high winds all night freaking me out now that i'm worried about things blowing off the house..
no sleep & a migraine to top it off, barometric pressure change can be a trigger :/
we're holiday orphans here which is lonely, but mr dad got to go out for dinner with his oldest friend at the horsebrass pub & i've been in touch with family down in socal at least <3
my ads don't help with my weakness to try & comfort my (toxic) self with cool things: although this one seems like a dangerous cat toy that would probably result in lacerations to my face & throat?
& this one likewise has a toy/tail

ghost closet antifashion winter 2022 update posts continue through xmas over at the lost & found ~
so i'm having some fun with that.. also i'm established over on post now, as is raven, for anyone else who might be over there, i follow back!

jr's wet food is frozen in his bowl, but he's got kibble & a heated waterbowl beside his winter shelter, don't be stubborn, boy, get in there!!
hope for a snowy xmas, seems likely..

..later 9pm & it's snowing <3


#alice #cats #kitty #snow #winter #xmas #christmas #gremlin #pdx #portland #pnw #oregon

alice the tiny gremlin ~


HaHa! Alice trying to get her tail! :D Is that one of the other kitty's in the photo that she knocked over! She's so cute!Made me smile! =) Poor Jr. with frozen wet food though makes me feel bad (in spite of his heated water bowl =))! I hope he went in the shelter! It's been so cold! Merry Christmas, Bren! <3


that kitty in the photo is miette, one of tabitha pittypats 5 daughters <3 i call that area 'kitty corner' where i have all their photos right where i can always see them right by me ;) spinning in circles to get her tail on the dresser, reckless & being a gremlin! jr's out there for bfast, maybe he gets into the winter shelters? we can't see him in the dark, just during the day, he's got a nice wooly winter coat :D


Awwww...kitty cat corner is a perfect spot for Alice to be playing with her tail. I'm glad you saw Jr. for breakfast. <3


i shared my xmas toy today at the lost & found :)
but high winds are back & it seems i wake up & go to sleep in a state of chronic stress, it just never ends, does it? i guess i'm destined to just live in survival mode..

p.s. hey sally i put up a few update pix of my xmas tree here: lol

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  • i am friendly ~ but i have edges..
  • seeing is deceiving..
  • $@x!^&*#%!/
  • love bites.
  • life sucks.
  • "but i don't want to go among mad people" Alice remarked.
    "oh, you can't help that," said the Cat:
    "we're all mad here.
    i'm mad. you're mad."
    "how do you know i'm mad?" said Alice.
    "you must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
    Alice didn't think that proved it at all;
    however, she went on "and how do you know that you're mad?"
    "to begin with," said the Cat, "a dog's not mad. you grant that?"
    "i suppose so," said Alice.
    "well, then," the Cat went on, "you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased.
    Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.."
  • but why is the rum gone?!
  • ***triggering!! don't look!!!*** (you looked..)
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