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  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

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ghost

#infj #ocd #stress #depression #mentalhealth #elliottsmith #radiohead #nickdrake #music #psychology #art #minis #christopheroriley #artherapy #ghostgallery #innerchild #rowsofneveropeneddoors

so i read this online today & it makes sense (dr to patient)
'the brain is made to keep us alive,
not to keep us happy.'

don't i know it. trying to shut off so much of my overthinking while being triggered into survival mode is endlessly stressful..

& even as a creative type at some point i run out of things i'm interested in doing, so i try to set up new projects for myself.. so that i'm not just forever lost in gaming or in the past watching old home movies.. i realized although we don't really want to start any more mini houses, we decided space-wise the last one would be it. well we do still have a bunch of parts & pieces & extras, & 2 of our houses are virtually empty, i had already planned a halloween party for the upcoming halloween season, to update our halloween house.. so mr dad & i have found something we want to work on together again at least :)
& i have some ideas brewing..
as for writing the toyroom stories i started.. not sure if i will or not anymore.. i feel like i've already told those stories up at the rowsofneveropeneddoors even if no one else understands them..?

been listening to my old christopher o'riley mix lately, it is so calming, we use to follow each other on twitter as he is a favorite that i've talked back & forth with in the old sweetaddy days <3 he plays here up at my autumn mix album: http://www.brensgumbyland.com/nature%20detox.html

thinking about nick drake lately too.. if you're not familiar with this sadly lost talent you should check him out up at my old cemeteria album here: http://www.brensgumbyland.com/my%20photo%20album.html (scroll down for the link..)

lyrics of the day from the opening song playing there -

falling fast & falling free
you look to find a friend
falling fast & falling free
this could just be the end
falling fast you stoop
to touch & kiss
the flowers that bend
& you're ready now
for the harvest breed..

awww.. https://www.designtoscano.com/products/the-red-welsh-dragon-monument-sized-statue-1-ne100043?sku=RFUNXXXNE100043&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIp772nNba-QIVjLFkCh2beQ3OEAEYASAIEgJzMvD_BwE

ghost

#infj #nickdrake #halloween #summer #retro #collectibles #music #song #lyrics #monster #eldenring #rpg #mmo #gaming #ravenmoonx #youtube

ok so it's really halloween now that we have our monster cereals! https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/ghost_toy_catalogue/monster-cereals-2022-x.html

& i defeated malenia in elden ring yesterday, took awhile, but i got her to her second phase right off, which led raven to say that 'i've still got it!' :) these from software games are our favorites, but notoriously considered too difficult!
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/elden-ring-bren.html

my ads of late:
https://www.fredmeyer.com/p/manhattan-toy-kodiak-bear-jumbo-plush-toy/0001196499403?fulfillment=SHIP&searchType=default_search (do i need this? i might actually..?)

https://www.fredmeyer.com/p/rubies-653279-nightmare-before-christmas-sally-pet-costume-medium/0008268605697?fulfillment=SHIP&searchType=default_search lolol!

lyrics of the day are from nick drake:

road

you can say the sun is shining if you really want to
i can see the moon
& it seems so clear
you can take the road
that takes you to the stars now
i can take a road
that’ll see me through
i can take a road
that'll see me through
i can take a road
that'll see me through..

(this is me putting off scheduling my echocardiogram.)

ghost

#summer #autumn #infj #minis #frogs #rabbits #cats #oregon

so we're still working on our backyard landscaping, today mr dad carefully removed the poisonous nightshade plant we discovered growing in one neglected spot! also it seems the bees are still with us, in a hole in the ground, but we were able to get the rest of the old shed there removed safely.. we don't want to harm beneficial bees <3
i noticed looking out the back window yesterday & today that we have a new regular, a young bunny out in the blackberry bushes :) i got a couple shots of him i put up here: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/backyard-bunny-sept-2022-x.html

also there was a kitty watching him who looks the spitting image of our old backyard stray, mr kat! we're calling him mr kat jr. i guess we'll be setting up our kitty winter shelter for sure now.. we always do just in case.. it was cooler today & we have 'the golden light' every evening, it feels like autumn now <3
i've been sewing today, with the help (Not.) of my assistant, alice.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/ghost_toy_catalogue/retro-kitty-pillow.html

my latest ads:
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/frog-goat-cast-iron-mechanical-coin-bank-sp1476?sku=SBROXXXSP1476&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIo9rLn-Dz-QIVAs5iCh3zZgouEAEYASAEEgK0PfD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/medium-bull-frog-cast-bronze-garden-statue-pn57921?sku=SBROXXXPN57921&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIuIa5huj0-QIVpQZoCB0W2QUKEAEYASAGEgKjF_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/grand-scale-the-galapagos-tortoise-statue-1-ne80124?sku=RFUNXXXNE80124&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&promo_code=LABRSALE&gclid=EAIaIQobChMItc-fnK_3-QIVsgOtBh3GMQP-EAEYASADEgL7oPD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/the-grande-scale-holstein-cow-statue-1-ne80139?sku=RFUNXXXNE80139&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMInMyAna_3-QIVvoF_BB1dYwY-EAEYASAEEgJe6fD_BwE

hmm... i do like big frogs.. :)

ghost

#infj #ghostgallery #arttherapy #rowsofneveropeneddoors #vintage #moon #migraine

last night the approaching harvest moon was peeking into my frenchdoor window at me bringing me my usual migraine.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/sept-moon-x.html

& i found a tiny silverfish behind my pillow on my bed! the horror!!
(anyone remember the silverfish king?)

so i'm waaay into elden ring these days: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/er-rough-days-x.html

& have started a new time machine album here paired up with some of the chris o'riley music i mentioned earlier: http://brensgumbyland.com/ghostgallerythetimemachine.html (sound up)

ok so yes i finally broke down & bought that skelly onesie mr dad said was 'so me' lol: https://www.dollskill.com/products/lazy-bones-thermal-onesie

it's finally feeling like autumn here but still getting some high temps so we'll wait for our customary autumn photo drives.. nothing like socal thank you god! i have family & friends still down there dealing with that freak heatwave insanity, they should move up here, just sayin'..

some lyrics of the day from a favorite from nick drake:

things behind the sun

please beware of them that stare
they'll only smile to see you while
your time away
& once you've seen what they have been to win the earth just won't seem worth
your night or your day
who'll hear what i say?
look around you find the ground is not so far from where you are
but don't be too wise
for down below they never grow
they're always tired & charms are hired from out of their eyes
never surprise.
take your time & you'll be fine & say a prayer for people there
who live on the floor
& if you see what's meant to be don't name the day or try to say
it happened before..
don't be shy you'll learn to fly & see the sun when day is done if only you see
just what you are beneath a star that came to stay one rainy day
in autumn for free
yes, be what you'll be..
please beware of them that stare
they'll only smile to see you while your time away
& once you've seen what they have been to win the earth just won't seem worth
your night or your day
who'll hear what i say?
open up the broken cup
let goodly sin & sunshine in
yes that's today
& open wide the hymns you hide
you'll find renown while people frown
at things that you say
but say what you'll say
about the farmers & the fun
& the things behind the sun
& the people around your head
who'll say everything's been said
& the movement in your brain
that sends you out into the rain..
<<<<<<<<<

the queen just died.. <3 rip elizabeth

ghost

#migraine #moon #autumn #collector #infj #halloween #toys #dollscape #spooky

i'm in migraine recovery mode after the big golden harvest moon, we took some home movies of alice playing with her new toy assortment, she loves her tunnel & new crinkle ball (the old crinkle ball was too small & is lost somewhere in the house..) the sky here has been orange with smoke from the fires but the east wind has been blowing it away thankfully.. that moon behind the blowing trees surrounding us looked like a fiery big crinkle ball in the sky!
anyway i thought i'd subject you to more of my recent ads:

https://www.designtoscano.com/products/enormous-african-elephant-statue-1-ne100059?sku=RFUNXXXNE100059&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIvObytf6M-gIV7wGtBh2qPATfEAEYASAFEgKhYfD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/life-sized-rhinoceros-statue-1-ne140042?sku=RFUNXXXNE140042&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIvObytf6M-gIV7wGtBh2qPATfEAEYASAEEgJfePD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/meditating-shy-yogi-of-bali-sculpture-1-ng30369?sku=SGRPCXXNG30369&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI9rfFtImN-gIVGIt_BB0eeQ7uEAEYASAEEgJhF_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/bark-black-forest-tree-ent-statue-cl5866?sku=MMYSXXXCL5866&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIgfaD14mN-gIVCo6nCh2lRgvxEAEYASAHEgIVhfD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/seat-of-death-grim-reaper-throne-chair-1-ne180195?sku=FNOVXXXNE180195&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI4-jx0aqN-gIV8gCKAx1iOwYIEAEYASAGEgIXE_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/the-creeper-from-the-grave-statue-qm21463?sku=RFUNXXXQM21463&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI8Z7U4qqN-gIV4oV_BB0cNQDcEAEYASAEEgK_4_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/lost-souls-gothic-skull-sculptural-chair-black-1-ne17020562?sku=FNOVXXXNE17020562&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI8Z7U4qqN-gIV4oV_BB0cNQDcEAEYASADEgKUZPD_BwE
https://twitter.com/woofknight/status/1569016433492762624?s=20&t=ZsdCfYqnsY6tb2bmc9jPsg

hey now! https://www.designtoscano.com/products/screaming-simon-wall-sculpture-1-os68490?sku=SGRMXXXOS68490&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIz8G6vOqN-gIVAAf5AB2Ahgp5EAEYASAFEgJXovD_BwE

hmm.. we are doing backyard landscaping..
our wild kitty winter shelter is all set up under our backyard patio again as we've had someone showing up for a meal here & there, he's the spitting image of mr kat, we're calling him jr.. <3

i'm working on my upcoming halloween party dollscape.. & you know, just trying not to lose my cracked lonely bored fragile mind..

ghost

#eldenring #gaming #ravenmoonx #lostandfoundtoys #cats #infj #ghostgallery

i'm wrapping up my elden ring playthrough & invited raven to come help me defeat the last big boss, the elden beast! i posted all about it here at the lost & found: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2022/09/elden-ring-end.html

maybe i'm getting too old for this shit.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/elden-ring-bren-snowmoon-im-getting-too-old-for-this-shit.html
actually i'm 57 (the 50 is silent.)

on that subject check out this ad i just got: https://www.americangirl.com/pages/american-girl-x-kidkraft-luxury-dollhouse?dtm_em=2d3e6a6e34e15e12fc14fe5b4c33f073874638183402eca25a3ab35796b1e2f7&utm_medium=email&utm_source=marketing-product&utm_campaign=ag-091322-NewDollhouse_4PM-Rewards&utm_content=rewards&mi_u=2d3e6a6e34e15e12fc14fe5b4c33f073874638183402eca25a3ab35796b1e2f7&mi_ecmp=ag-091322-NewDollhouse_4PM-Rewards&cid=PDM581516&bid=283717233 oh my gosh!!

anyway i'm still working on my upcoming halloween party dollscape & adding to the time machine album in the left sidebar.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e202a308e07f8e200c-pi
jr (a*k*a mr kat III) is hanging out here now that he knows we'll leave food & water out for him, a winter shelter is in place as well as a cooler cardboard box house so he doesn't have to sleep in the dirt stalking our backyard jays <3

ps - i seem to have a bed gremlin? https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/bed-gremlin.html

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  • "but i don't want to go among mad people" Alice remarked.
    "oh, you can't help that," said the Cat:
    "we're all mad here.
    i'm mad. you're mad."
    "how do you know i'm mad?" said Alice.
    "you must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
    Alice didn't think that proved it at all;
    however, she went on "and how do you know that you're mad?"
    "to begin with," said the Cat, "a dog's not mad. you grant that?"
    "i suppose so," said Alice.
    "well, then," the Cat went on, "you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased.
    Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.."
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