snowballinhell

once upon a time 16 years or so ago, i started this blog. i was a regular at the popular elliott smith fan forum called sweetaddy & took the name from one of his song lyrics, in fact my posts here were usually daily smith favorite song lyrics & i hosted my own lyrics page up at my gumbyland website here also :
from a poison well

i was new to portland & listened to elliott's music here all the time & i'd photo places he use to go & often places he mentioned in his songs..
my old portland photo album..

i had been so shocked to hear of his suicide not long before we left socal for pdx..
& i felt elliott's words as i walked rainy portland streets with my ipod earphones in & his sad quiet rares whispering to me..
we all obsessed over his lyrics at sweetaddy,
he was such a gifted songwriter & musician..
i was known at sweetaddy as friendlyghost then, & was even asked by the modgod running the forum if i'd like to be modgoddess.. <3
which i declined because i was already hosting my own support forum at the time, but that always meant alot to me, because he called me 'universally respected' there,
& that mattered to me :)
sweetaddy finally ended, but my little ghostblog kept on, sometimes busy, sometimes a true ghostblog..

i became known more as 'ghost' or 'justaghost' (still elliott-isms)
anyway i let the blog sit for a few years neglected & then brought it back once so i could have a place to express my sometimes difficult infj ghost life..
i know it's like talking to myself,
but apparently i need that..
his music makes me too sad now.
i'm having trouble with lost loved ones as well.
does grief get easier over time?
my experience has been the opposite, as time goes on & loved ones feel farther & farther away the sadness aches more & more, especially with other sad souls, like he was, like others i knew..
these days i'm feeling like i'm back to my old snowballinhell persona.. not very hopeful..

anyway my lyrics of the day are from elliott:

little one

one more little one
i'll go down
& stay down
& sleep the rest of the day
dream new music to calm down
stay down & keep evil away
i can hear you asleep
changing your shape
dissolve in some dream
as a new one appears
to take you along
where you've never been
1 2 3 4 5 6 7
the moonlight tonight
seems to belong to me
'cause i, even those who can't sleep
they need some company
one hit wouldn't hurt a bit
i'll go down
see what's there to find
if it's good shit
you won't know
& i won't know
you've found that i've died
if i seem to be reckless with myself
it's the fault of no one
all things have a place
under the moon
as well as the sun
one more little one
i love you..

i paired this old favorite up with my latest toxic inner child dollscape..

little raven's lost days (sound up)

(my name is irish for little raven)
more in the comments as usual..

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[ghost]

#infj #ocd #stress #depression #mentalhealth #elliottsmith #radiohead #nickdrake #music #psychology #art #minis #christopheroriley #artherapy #ghostgallery #innerchild #rowsofneveropeneddoors

so i read this online today & it makes sense (dr to patient)
'the brain is made to keep us alive,
not to keep us happy.'

don't i know it. trying to shut off so much of my overthinking while being triggered into survival mode is endlessly stressful..

& even as a creative type at some point i run out of things i'm interested in doing, so i try to set up new projects for myself.. so that i'm not just forever lost in gaming or in the past watching old home movies.. i realized although we don't really want to start any more mini houses, we decided space-wise the last one would be it. well we do still have a bunch of parts & pieces & extras, & 2 of our houses are virtually empty, i had already planned a halloween party for the upcoming halloween season, to update our halloween house.. so mr dad & i have found something we want to work on together again at least :)
& i have some ideas brewing..
as for writing the toyroom stories i started.. not sure if i will or not anymore.. i feel like i've already told those stories up at the rowsofneveropeneddoors even if no one else understands them..?

been listening to my old christopher o'riley mix lately, it is so calming, we use to follow each other on twitter as he is a favorite that i've talked back & forth with in the old sweetaddy days <3 he plays here up at my autumn mix album: http://www.brensgumbyland.com/nature%20detox.html

thinking about nick drake lately too.. if you're not familiar with this sadly lost talent you should check him out up at my old cemeteria album here: http://www.brensgumbyland.com/my%20photo%20album.html (scroll down for the link..)

lyrics of the day from the opening song playing there -

falling fast & falling free
you look to find a friend
falling fast & falling free
this could just be the end
falling fast you stoop
to touch & kiss
the flowers that bend
& you're ready now
for the harvest breed..

awww.. https://www.designtoscano.com/products/the-red-welsh-dragon-monument-sized-statue-1-ne100043?sku=RFUNXXXNE100043&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIp772nNba-QIVjLFkCh2beQ3OEAEYASAIEgJzMvD_BwE

[ghost]

#infj #nickdrake #halloween #summer #retro #collectibles #music #song #lyrics #monster #eldenring #rpg #mmo #gaming #ravenmoonx #youtube

ok so it's really halloween now that we have our monster cereals! https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/ghost_toy_catalogue/monster-cereals-2022-x.html

& i defeated malenia in elden ring yesterday, took awhile, but i got her to her second phase right off, which led raven to say that 'i've still got it!' :) these from software games are our favorites, but notoriously considered too difficult!
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/elden-ring-bren.html

my ads of late:
https://www.fredmeyer.com/p/manhattan-toy-kodiak-bear-jumbo-plush-toy/0001196499403?fulfillment=SHIP&searchType=default_search (do i need this? i might actually..?)

https://www.fredmeyer.com/p/rubies-653279-nightmare-before-christmas-sally-pet-costume-medium/0008268605697?fulfillment=SHIP&searchType=default_search lolol!

lyrics of the day are from nick drake:

road

you can say the sun is shining if you really want to
i can see the moon
& it seems so clear
you can take the road
that takes you to the stars now
i can take a road
that’ll see me through
i can take a road
that'll see me through
i can take a road
that'll see me through..

(this is me putting off scheduling my echocardiogram.)

[ghost]

#summer #autumn #infj #minis #frogs #rabbits #cats #oregon

so we're still working on our backyard landscaping, today mr dad carefully removed the poisonous nightshade plant we discovered growing in one neglected spot! also it seems the bees are still with us, in a hole in the ground, but we were able to get the rest of the old shed there removed safely.. we don't want to harm beneficial bees <3
i noticed looking out the back window yesterday & today that we have a new regular, a young bunny out in the blackberry bushes :) i got a couple shots of him i put up here: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/backyard-bunny-sept-2022-x.html

also there was a kitty watching him who looks the spitting image of our old backyard stray, mr kat! we're calling him mr kat jr. i guess we'll be setting up our kitty winter shelter for sure now.. we always do just in case.. it was cooler today & we have 'the golden light' every evening, it feels like autumn now <3
i've been sewing today, with the help (Not.) of my assistant, alice.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/ghost_toy_catalogue/retro-kitty-pillow.html

my latest ads:
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/frog-goat-cast-iron-mechanical-coin-bank-sp1476?sku=SBROXXXSP1476&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIo9rLn-Dz-QIVAs5iCh3zZgouEAEYASAEEgK0PfD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/medium-bull-frog-cast-bronze-garden-statue-pn57921?sku=SBROXXXPN57921&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIuIa5huj0-QIVpQZoCB0W2QUKEAEYASAGEgKjF_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/grand-scale-the-galapagos-tortoise-statue-1-ne80124?sku=RFUNXXXNE80124&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&promo_code=LABRSALE&gclid=EAIaIQobChMItc-fnK_3-QIVsgOtBh3GMQP-EAEYASADEgL7oPD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/the-grande-scale-holstein-cow-statue-1-ne80139?sku=RFUNXXXNE80139&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMInMyAna_3-QIVvoF_BB1dYwY-EAEYASAEEgJe6fD_BwE

hmm... i do like big frogs.. :)

[ghost]

#infj #ghostgallery #arttherapy #rowsofneveropeneddoors #vintage #moon #migraine

last night the approaching harvest moon was peeking into my frenchdoor window at me bringing me my usual migraine.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/sept-moon-x.html

& i found a tiny silverfish behind my pillow on my bed! the horror!!
(anyone remember the silverfish king?)

so i'm waaay into elden ring these days: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/er-rough-days-x.html

& have started a new time machine album here paired up with some of the chris o'riley music i mentioned earlier: http://brensgumbyland.com/ghostgallerythetimemachine.html (sound up)

ok so yes i finally broke down & bought that skelly onesie mr dad said was 'so me' lol: https://www.dollskill.com/products/lazy-bones-thermal-onesie

it's finally feeling like autumn here but still getting some high temps so we'll wait for our customary autumn photo drives.. nothing like socal thank you god! i have family & friends still down there dealing with that freak heatwave insanity, they should move up here, just sayin'..

some lyrics of the day from a favorite from nick drake:

things behind the sun

please beware of them that stare
they'll only smile to see you while
your time away
& once you've seen what they have been to win the earth just won't seem worth
your night or your day
who'll hear what i say?
look around you find the ground is not so far from where you are
but don't be too wise
for down below they never grow
they're always tired & charms are hired from out of their eyes
never surprise.
take your time & you'll be fine & say a prayer for people there
who live on the floor
& if you see what's meant to be don't name the day or try to say
it happened before..
don't be shy you'll learn to fly & see the sun when day is done if only you see
just what you are beneath a star that came to stay one rainy day
in autumn for free
yes, be what you'll be..
please beware of them that stare
they'll only smile to see you while your time away
& once you've seen what they have been to win the earth just won't seem worth
your night or your day
who'll hear what i say?
open up the broken cup
let goodly sin & sunshine in
yes that's today
& open wide the hymns you hide
you'll find renown while people frown
at things that you say
but say what you'll say
about the farmers & the fun
& the things behind the sun
& the people around your head
who'll say everything's been said
& the movement in your brain
that sends you out into the rain..
<<<<<<<<<

the queen just died.. <3 rip elizabeth

[ghost]

#migraine #moon #autumn #collector #infj #halloween #toys #dollscape #spooky

i'm in migraine recovery mode after the big golden harvest moon, we took some home movies of alice playing with her new toy assortment, she loves her tunnel & new crinkle ball (the old crinkle ball was too small & is lost somewhere in the house..) the sky here has been orange with smoke from the fires but the east wind has been blowing it away thankfully.. that moon behind the blowing trees surrounding us looked like a fiery big crinkle ball in the sky!
anyway i thought i'd subject you to more of my recent ads:

https://www.designtoscano.com/products/enormous-african-elephant-statue-1-ne100059?sku=RFUNXXXNE100059&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIvObytf6M-gIV7wGtBh2qPATfEAEYASAFEgKhYfD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/life-sized-rhinoceros-statue-1-ne140042?sku=RFUNXXXNE140042&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIvObytf6M-gIV7wGtBh2qPATfEAEYASAEEgJfePD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/meditating-shy-yogi-of-bali-sculpture-1-ng30369?sku=SGRPCXXNG30369&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI9rfFtImN-gIVGIt_BB0eeQ7uEAEYASAEEgJhF_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/bark-black-forest-tree-ent-statue-cl5866?sku=MMYSXXXCL5866&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIgfaD14mN-gIVCo6nCh2lRgvxEAEYASAHEgIVhfD_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/seat-of-death-grim-reaper-throne-chair-1-ne180195?sku=FNOVXXXNE180195&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI4-jx0aqN-gIV8gCKAx1iOwYIEAEYASAGEgIXE_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/the-creeper-from-the-grave-statue-qm21463?sku=RFUNXXXQM21463&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI8Z7U4qqN-gIV4oV_BB0cNQDcEAEYASAEEgK_4_D_BwE
https://www.designtoscano.com/products/lost-souls-gothic-skull-sculptural-chair-black-1-ne17020562?sku=FNOVXXXNE17020562&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI8Z7U4qqN-gIV4oV_BB0cNQDcEAEYASADEgKUZPD_BwE
https://twitter.com/woofknight/status/1569016433492762624?s=20&t=ZsdCfYqnsY6tb2bmc9jPsg

hey now! https://www.designtoscano.com/products/screaming-simon-wall-sculpture-1-os68490?sku=SGRMXXXOS68490&utm_source=google&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=freeshop&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIz8G6vOqN-gIVAAf5AB2Ahgp5EAEYASAFEgJXovD_BwE

hmm.. we are doing backyard landscaping..
our wild kitty winter shelter is all set up under our backyard patio again as we've had someone showing up for a meal here & there, he's the spitting image of mr kat, we're calling him jr.. <3

i'm working on my upcoming halloween party dollscape.. & you know, just trying not to lose my cracked lonely bored fragile mind..

[ghost]

#eldenring #gaming #ravenmoonx #lostandfoundtoys #cats #infj #ghostgallery

i'm wrapping up my elden ring playthrough & invited raven to come help me defeat the last big boss, the elden beast! i posted all about it here at the lost & found: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2022/09/elden-ring-end.html

maybe i'm getting too old for this shit.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/elden-ring-bren-snowmoon-im-getting-too-old-for-this-shit.html
actually i'm 57 (the 50 is silent.)

on that subject check out this ad i just got: https://www.americangirl.com/pages/american-girl-x-kidkraft-luxury-dollhouse?dtm_em=2d3e6a6e34e15e12fc14fe5b4c33f073874638183402eca25a3ab35796b1e2f7&utm_medium=email&utm_source=marketing-product&utm_campaign=ag-091322-NewDollhouse_4PM-Rewards&utm_content=rewards&mi_u=2d3e6a6e34e15e12fc14fe5b4c33f073874638183402eca25a3ab35796b1e2f7&mi_ecmp=ag-091322-NewDollhouse_4PM-Rewards&cid=PDM581516&bid=283717233 oh my gosh!!

anyway i'm still working on my upcoming halloween party dollscape & adding to the time machine album in the left sidebar.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e202a308e07f8e200c-pi
jr (a*k*a mr kat III) is hanging out here now that he knows we'll leave food & water out for him, a winter shelter is in place as well as a cooler cardboard box house so he doesn't have to sleep in the dirt stalking our backyard jays <3

ps - i seem to have a bed gremlin? https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/the_lost_album/bed-gremlin.html

[ghost]

#NationalSonsDay2022 #vampire #gaming #youtube #ravenmoonx #autumn #infj #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #lyric #sasquatch #halloween #midlake

my favorite tweet of late: https://twitter.com/GhostAtTheGate/status/1575169858157023232?s=20&t=RIsJr9xAqz1NGquP_NlTiw

so emmanuel & the baby emus & rheas are safe after the hurricane! :D <3 & hey, my emu shirt arrived, so look for a ghost closet antifashion 2022 update here soon.. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/ghost_toy_catalogue/emu-tshirt.html

the sasquatch underwent a colonoscopy & had polyps removed, so much fun, huh? hoping the test results come back benign? please?? it was just another reminder that i am good staying IN for the most part.. although gladly we are actually finally getting rain here! thank you !!!

i'm working on several mini house updates & projects that keep me busy these days, & alice is So helpful! she is fascinated with needles & thread, scissors & paper minis, anything i'm working with, but less interested in her assortment of toys that lie all about the house, why?

i have been making progress on my ocd, sitting with my discomfort & 'forgetting' *whistles & gazes out the window* things that i should be worrying or obsessing over? & i'm still here, & now at my regular weight again.. still having my trust issues, but honestly, is it even prudent to trust the humans? i'd love an exception for once..

some lyrics for the day from midlake's of desire:

we're working it out
but time can really really
play some tricks on us now
i can't always tell if what is
good for the fowl
may be not so good for
everyone in the house
make-believe was never so easy
i never noticed why
means to an end of desire
no one wants to get out of line
reason should always see eye to eye
then how did we end up on these sides
of a hill never needing us to climb
i never noticed why
means to an end of desire
there's something about
going all around in circles
wondering how everything that's given
isn't means to allow
more than where we've ended up
with or without
make-believe was never so easy
i never noticed why
means to an end of desire..

here comes october :D & the 17 year anniversary of our journey up here to oregon <3
never looked back..

[ghost]

#october #halloween #cats #infj #collector #minis #autumn #ghostgallery #vampire #rowsofneveropeneddoors #oregon

autumn is truly here, the streets are wet, it's cool & lovely, raccoons visited my deck in the middle of the night, mama & 3 youngsters rolling around playing & raising their tiny hands to the frenchdoor glass like high 5's to alice who had quite a show! she was fascinated & unafraid :D
we lost our internet yesterday which was tough for us, sasquatch works from home, raven does youtube gaming online & i've been posting for october at the lost & found.. at least i had the chance to sit here quietly & meticulously sew together a miniature articulated skeleton for my upcoming halloween party dollscape.. oh my, never again! this was quite a challenge. he's teenytiny!
we ordered a new comfortable chaise for our livingroom & i was looking forward to the nice big box it would come in just as much as the chair, i was quite unhappy when it arrived all wrapped in plastic sheeting instead.. :( there goes my vampire fort. :/

my ads of late have been wonderfully halloween at least:

https://www.entertainmentearth.com/product/BBP05008ALTR?utm_source=Criteo&utm_medium=Display&utm_campaign=Lower%20Funnel
https://www.walmart.com/ip/Cool-Halloween-Decor-1-2pcs-Posable-Full-Body-Thanksgiving-Pumpkin-Head-Skull-Skeleton-Movable-Joints-Mini-Figure-Toy-Decoration-16-Tall-Orange/903198366?sourceid=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&veh=dsn&wmlspartner=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&cn=FY23-ENTP-At-Risk-CRM-Desktop_cnv_dps_dsn_soc_cri_entp_e_n
https://www.walmart.com/ip/SKELETONS-CARRYING-COFFIN/998686415?sourceid=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&veh=dsn&wmlspartner=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&cn=FY23-ENTP-At-Risk-CRM-Desktop_cnv_dps_dsn_soc_cri_entp_e_n
https://www.walmart.com/ip/The-Nightmare-Before-Christmas-16-Piece-Ceramic-Dinnerware-Set/304035014?sourceid=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&veh=dsn&wmlspartner=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&cn=FY23-ENTP-At-Risk-CRM-Desktop_cnv_dps_dsn_soc_cri_entp_e_n
https://www.teeshirtpalace.com/products/eef0086404-emo-emu-funny-metal-goth-emu-bird-sweatshirt?color=black&size=L&sl=Desktop%20Only%20-%20All%20Products&msclkid=2fe41a08954215ba8e4f793336517e5c&utm_source=bing&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=Shopping%20Last%20Year%20-%20Desktop%20Only&utm_term=4588330749103305&utm_content=Desktop%20Only%20-%20All%20Products
https://www.qvc.com/ExploreHut-Haunted-House.product.T40339.html?cm_mmc=Display-_-Criteo-_-61day-_-pdp&TZ=EST
https://gopodiscovery.com/product/chicken-legs-socks/
https://www.walmart.com/ip/1955-Chevy-Pedal-Car-Purple-White/667213819?sourceid=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&veh=dsn&wmlspartner=dsn_cri_8ba19094-bb3f-44bd-a8ac-811ad812995e&cn=FY23-ENTP-At-Risk-CRM-Desktop_cnv_dps_dsn_soc_cri_entp_e_n
i'd drive this around portland! :D

whoa! https://www.ebay.com/itm/115553692612?hash=item1ae7896bc4%3Ag%3AxaEAAOSwxfljNigc&amdata=enc%3AAQAHAAAA4KHBmd2ixZuB47XHmgvzag1ZaRUXIIqN3blSXrR%2FKISDEn3snDzfRYtae6dBz94LpLyEWweTZ81nX%2BxhP174RspQLmQ62PQHUzN6NqobubIHQXB0gsBunc2poEdx%2B0hlA0%2F07o3qQyRen5M3iJqRbWEv5L6WQTCMuFxoOcg40DROXTVfNW%2BWifnhMVXyznxw1NKMZwYXTB71y2uUTdIt3yHQ6ma9ybOEF1hFOj%2FYudO9BAgY7fJ45jk0HI2UkW2r9HIoJPlaml0nbmNDT%2BR7n4SnpC5CHkBc9fALpT1rIEGU%7Ctkp%3ABk9SR-LK6a31YA

ps - barney barbie you can be anything!
https://www.etsy.com/listing/1294069919/needle-felted-barney-barbie-ooak-doll?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=barney+barbie&ref=sr_gallery-1-1&cns=1&organic_search_click=1

[ghost]

#infj #blog #books #toys #socks #portland #ghostgallery #halloween #gaming #autumn #vintage #dolls #retro #cats #rowsofneveropeneddoors

another cool autumn morning here in pdx, alice is watching squirrels here at the open frenchdoors in my room, she has learned that although we do not allow her to Catch & Eat the squirrels, she can at least leap to the top of the screendoor & Terrify them to near death, leaving them growling & chuffing at her with insane eyes.. lols
i'd get this to play with her, but there Would be Blood! https://smile.amazon.com/Archie-McPhee-12698-Handi-Squirrel/dp/B06XXQD54H/ref=sr_1_2?crid=EJQT96QUGCYK&keywords=archie+mcphee&qid=1665342703&qu=eyJxc2MiOiI4LjAzIiwicXNhIjoiNy43NCIsInFzcCI6IjcuMzIifQ%3D%3D&refinements=p_76%3A1249179011&rnid=1249177011&rps=1&s=toys-and-games&sprefix=archie+m%2Caps%2C145&sr=1-2
oh! look https://smile.amazon.com/Accoutrements-Squirrel-Feeder-Unicorn-Standard/dp/B014LIOC64/ref=sr_1_19?crid=EJQT96QUGCYK&keywords=archie+mcphee&qid=1665342722&qu=eyJxc2MiOiI4LjAzIiwicXNhIjoiNy43NCIsInFzcCI6IjcuMzIifQ%3D%3D&refinements=p_76%3A1249179011&rnid=1249177011&rps=1&s=toys-and-games&sprefix=archie+m%2Caps%2C145&sr=1-19
ok now.. https://smile.amazon.com/Archie-McPhee-Head-Squirrel-Feeder/dp/B073V5ZX41/ref=sr_1_434_sspa?crid=EJQT96QUGCYK&keywords=archie+mcphee&qid=1665344186&qu=eyJxc2MiOiI4LjAzIiwicXNhIjoiNy43NCIsInFzcCI6IjcuMzIifQ%3D%3D&refinements=p_76%3A1249179011&rnid=1249177011&rps=1&s=toys-and-games&sprefix=archie+m%2Caps%2C145&sr=1-434-spons&psc=1&smid=A7VC4OL6GL8ZS&spLa=ZW5jcnlwdGVkUXVhbGlmaWVyPUExUVo2ODRDM0RCUFZYJmVuY3J5cHRlZElkPUEwNDk1NzE5OFNITldORVAxVk9GJmVuY3J5cHRlZEFkSWQ9QTEwMTE1OTIxT0s4TDdaNEw4NjNKJndpZGdldE5hbWU9c3BfYXRmX25leHQmYWN0aW9uPWNsaWNrUmVkaXJlY3QmZG9Ob3RMb2dDbGljaz10cnVl
& sometimes at night the raccoons come to play too.. little alice, she's a good hunter. reminds me, tonight's the hunter's moon, makes me nostalgic for bloodborne, hey where's bloodborne 2? c'mon! i'm getting old waiting.. & i require american mcgee's alice asylum at some point before i end up in one myself?

speaking of squirrels & raccoons, so this morning was fun because i happened upon a live insta stream of jenny lawson giving an impromptu tour of her nowhere bookshop down in texas.. years ago my oldest friend told me about her, she's a fun author & fellow vintage kid, artist.. i've posted about her & her books here at the lost & found before: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2017/07/you-are-here-jenny-lawson.html
anyway i caught this stream live: https://www.instagram.com/p/Cjf953XgnQJ/
& once again was able to interact with another cool author i admire, again, as we've commented back & forth at her blog before re: mini houses <3 she's a fellow enthusiast & minihouse builder.. i loved the tour, so many items i've shared about at the lost & found, from blue q #noboringsocks to stickers, coloring books, decomposition books etc.. i asked 'where's hunter s tomcat? here kitty kitty..' (i assumed her cat would be a bookstore cat?) & she answered that he was at home because apparently you can't have cats & food & booze in the same establishment? or some such regulation.. i was glad to catch the tour as i'm someone who'll never be in texas i'm sure. so much fun. reminds me of how many bookstores have gone by the wayside like malls & blockbuster video stores nowadays.. so glad for all my border's books birthdays when my mom would always gift me with a border's book gift card & i'd have a blast shopping & bringing home cool stuff! i even have home movies of some of these treasure hauls once i got home. & of course i still have all that treasure. i'm like the reclusive version of jenny & her bookstore. only my happy place is my secret vintage kids' library & toyroom ;)

speaking of adult kids, i posted yesterday about the weird mcd adult happy meals & toys at the lost & found too: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2022/10/adult-happy-meal.html
we don't normally get happy meals anymore, another wave we rode to the end? it use to be that if i didn't get a toy with my meal i didn't eat. because, duh.

oh & here's another ad i just got: https://www.crateandbarrel.com/wooden-treehouse-dollhouse/s534345?localedetail=US&utm_source=bing&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=PLA&a=1869&scid=scbplp534345&sc_intid=534345&msclkid=367e91c2080a1f68b8b6f280d5d25cfb&utm_term=4583314256325503&utm_content=QT%20-%20Kids%20-%20Toys%20-%20Bing
i also enjoyed an insta livestream from ToonCon today, reminds me, fellow vintage kid sid krofft has the coolest treehouse: https://www.instagram.com/p/CiiXevvJZ7U/
toxic never had a tree for a treehouse. so sad. she would've built one herself too. but instead we had to create our secret snowcave <3 i still need it & crawl in there to hide often..
btw are we headed for nuclear armageddon? https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/memoirs_of_a_vampire_butt/nuclear-armageddon.html

so john's test results came back. yeah the polyps removed were pre-cancerous :( but at least they're out of him.. almost as terrifying is what will this now cost?

i'm still working on my upcoming halloween party dollscape, but have misplaced some dolls.. still searching. i need a helper. getting old is not pretty. i miss being able to do anything i wanted to do without aches & pains.

note: typepad is moving to a new data server (AGAIN!) & images in my albums may or may not work well here & there through october.. grrrr.
oh & i entered another emily giveaway.. fingers x'd!