there's no place like home

i've said it before, vampires don't do summer.
so we survived the freakish heat event here that broke all time heat records at 118.
& now my mysterious monster of a husband is home recovering from surgery to remove his lymph nodes & a cancerous melanoma, along with a big chunk of his arm. but just venturing out into the heat & traffic to take him to & from the hospital was hideous. so much traffic, with me melting inside my hoodie trying to protect my lily white self from sun allergy, it smelled like skunks out. yeah, finally getting home to my dark cool vampire lair & the ac i felt just like dorothy at the end of the wizard of oz..

'& this is My Room.. & you're all here.. & i'm not going to leave here Ever Ever again!'
(i've theorized before that dorothy went on to live an agoraphobic life after that, away from traumatizing munchkins & flying monkeys, dealing with her ptsd privately..)
i'm never going outside again..
..well, at least until fall.

so i've tried to finally fix the problem of all my audio/music being stolen from my various albums, art links & such, at least on the newer links & all the ones in the sidebars here & at the lost & found toy blog too.. hopefully this fixes this longstanding troublesome issue.

tomorrow's the dreaded 4th of july & all fireworks, legal & otherwise are banned here due to the dangerous conditions, but you know, people are careless morons, yesterday the eagle creek trail finally reopened after the big fire 3 years ago that had us so scared of evacuation, thanks to one idiot with fireworks.
at least we have an air purifier now in the house in case of toxic smoke again this fire season..

i seem to be cursed to remain at 111 lbs despite ongoing efforts to eat better & stay healthy & calm.. haha.

we've had some painting & repairs caught up as we're able here, still more to go before we reach the end of this tunnel.. & kitties. i need kitties.
continued as always in the comments..
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bren/ghost

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[ghost]

#infj #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #agoraphobia #psychology #vampires
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e2027880365852200d-pi

[ghost]

#cats #kitty #infj #cattails #ptsd #mentalhealth #agoraphobia #trauma #anxiety #depression #gaming

the traumatic life of martha sweetroll:

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/cattails.html

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/memoirs_of_a_vampire_butt/martha-sweetroll.html

[ghost]

#migraine #infj #art #ghostgallery #arttherapy #rowsofneveropeneddoors #abstract #moon #painting

migraine coming on.. so i'll be pouring my art into a new abstract album called artspill for a bit.. (link to come)

also the heat record i mentioned here at 118? that's been amended, in mr dad's old neighborhood for example, it reached 124! 180 on the concrete where you could slow cook a roast. yikes!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. my new book: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2021/07/lost-found-toys.html

[ghost]

#infj #art #painter #arttherapy #radiohead #modern #psychology #rowsofneveropeneddoors #ghostgallery #abstracts

i'm a creep
i'm a weirdo
what the hell am i doing here?
i don't belong here
i don't belong here.

http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgalleryartspill.html (sound up)

[ghost]

2021 #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #photography #depression #psychology #art #mentalhealth #vampires #decemberists

http://brensgumbyland.com/ghostgallery2021album.html (sound up)

p.s. i just bought these cool enamel pins for my jacket, they help support mental health awareness :)
https://www.instagram.com/p/CN_LAgTFI1F/

(they asked me if i'd be a 'brand ambassador' ?)

[ghost]

#ESO #elderscrolls #rpg #mmo #gaming #vampire #cats #infj #blog

i got max level today.. oh wait, they changed it so now the sky's the limit.. lol
(also, snug is back with me now so i know everything will be ok..)

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/bren-ghost-eso-810.html

[ghost]

#infj #death #loss #grief #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #experiments

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e2026bdee49a40200c-pi

[ghost]

#experiments #art #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #arttherapy #psychology #mentalhealth #death

been working on some experiments here: http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgalleryexperimentsalbum.html (sound up)
still in progress..

[ghost]

#ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #art #arttherapy #infj #painter #music #abstract #modern #artist

latest experiment i named tidepools, but then my son gave it a much lovelier title: swirling clouds in violet haze..
(i consider this van gogh reference the highest compliment i think i've ever received, thanks to raven <3)
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e20282e11640d4200b-pi

[ghost]

#ESO #fantasy #gaming #infj #cats #elderscrollsonline #crazycatladies #mmo rpg

meow
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/brenkhat-eso-x.html

[ghost]

#infj #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #art #arttherapy #painter #nature #naturedetox #agoraphobia #psychology #mentalhealth

so we're thinking about buying a small trailer.. we want to be able to get back out into nature without depending on restaurants & public bathrooms, you know, humanity. i want to see the milky way at night from a beach in the cooler off season, bring out our telescope & look at the stars, hunt for rocks & shells, spy on creatures in their element, photo old cemeteries & trees again..

meanwhile we're surviving another heatwave. sorry, but summer is just one big fucking headache to us vampires.

p.s. it's friday13 - http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgalleryfriday13.html (sound up)

[ghost]

#rowsofneveropeneddoors #ghostgallery #art #halloween #infj #vampire #mentalhealth #artist #recluse #dreadfull

so mr dad attended a memorial for his oldest friend's wife, she was lakota & it was a special native american ceremony up in rural washington state.. we're still getting home repairs & recarpeting done as we are able to here. it's lonely right now even for us reclusive vampires but at least a cool front is coming in & i'm decorating our house for halloween! thank goodness for our gameworlds & the internet.. i was just telling mr dad we may have to have padding installed on the walls here in my room.. :D

i always did relate too well to vanessa ives, especially in the season 3 premiere episode! (actually i attended many a #disasterdinnerparty on twitter as miss ives in her straightjacket)

https://twitter.com/GhostAtTheGate/status/1269016487068483585?s=20

https://twitter.com/GhostAtTheGate/status/1243931618797998086?s=20

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e201b8d1facf28970c-pi

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/a_mouthfull_of_razorblade/hey-its-me.html

here's another experiment: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e20282e119660f200b-pi