My Photo
a ghost.. a real ghost.. has no need to die.. what is he/she except a being without access to the universe that he has not yet managed to forget?
~ randall jarrell

i officially talk to myself here in the comments, or to visitors as long as they're not robots.. any comments are welcome ;)
In limbo
rows of never opened doors:
ghost gallery quarantine area (use a laptop or pc with firefox or google chrome browser for essential music, no phones)
all artwork here is copyright protected by vengeful ghosts!
2019 brenda roudebush
all rights reserved..

ghost stories
(blood & butterflies..)

  • these are excerpts from the book toxic & i wrote about our childhood... it's called 'brenda was here'.. let me know what you think/comments? p.s. stories here are non fiction/true. (privately hosted ~ if you're interested in reading this just ask:)


Brenghost
vintage kids can come & visit the ghost toy catalogue here.. (sound up)
Cherrytreemoon
the friendlyghost album ~ welcome to my photo album..
we live in wonderland.. :)
i hope you enjoy me & my guys & kitties, the places we go & things we enjoy..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved
Beloved sleep
cemeteria album ~
remember me as you pass by.. as you are now so once was i.. as i am now so you will be.. prepare for death and follow me..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved
Scandalous
family tree album ~
this addition to the cemeteria album is especially for my own lost loved ones..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

a POEtry reading...

elliott smith & portland

Pdx
portland haunts album ~
is mr smith haunting portland? come see snaps of elliott smith landmarks & other local spots..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

the library..

Thingsbehindthesun
things behind the sun (journals)
Razorblades
a mouthfull of razorblades (journals)
www.flickr.com
ghost at the gate's items Go to ghost at the gate's photostream
Laurelhurst trees
january trees album ~
january trees ~ winter shows her bones.. the tree is the psyche, the spirit, the whole self.. our inner world..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved
Brenkitty
toxic was here ~
vintage socal, birthdays & halloweens..
copyright 2008 all rights reserved
Enter
halloween mini album ~
~ copyright 2015 all rights reserved
Bren alice patreon
ghost pix album ~ rpg videogame screenshots, lol kitties & all kinds of goodies.. (use a pc or laptop to hear my game mix here)

home to oblivion..


  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

ghost charity

ghost space

Blog powered by Typepad
Member since 04/2006

« quarantine | Main

May 29, 2020

Comments

Feed You can follow this conversation by subscribing to the comment feed for this post.

ghost

#infj #strawberrymoon #fullmoon #lunareclipse #lunacy #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #psychology #cats #ferals
caution: fucks & more fucks ahead.

more fucking terror buildup as i feel like i'm suffocating under this strawberry moon/lunar eclipse, i sleep when i can, eat when i can, usually vanilla ice-cream.
& more fucking problems with my ghost gallery, now music's not loading on pages using google chrome? sometimes? varies by browser? why?
also can one die of springcleaning & hotflashes? those tiny bits of hell spread out for maximum punishment for all my many sins? all conspiring together with my orthostatic hypotension to try to kill me off, surely.
have i mentioned after the last snow our backyard ferals have drifted away elsewhere?? i hope they're ok? maybe they have better spring/summer digs than our winter shelter array?
we're bbqing burgers out back tonight since we're forecast for more tstorms this weekend.. that'll be nice at least..
well not for me of course because i can't eat. but the thunderstorms will be nice.. (it's called chrysalism, you should look it up)
so i bought some radiohead socks. that'll be nice too, someday, when they finally get here & wait out our garage quarantine system for mail & packages.
quarantine fashion btw : https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/around_the_bend/brenmask.html
makes me think of my own sweet cheshire cat, snug.. wish i was with her.
so if i'm up choking tonight i'll try to photo the moon & update later..

p.s. fuckall.

update: so it's nice & rainy here, too cloudy for moonpix this time, i'm ok with that. not ok with whatever's occurring with my ghost gallery links here, i've ruled out my bloghost typepad. it seems sound is being stolen away from many of my gallery & album links, so going forward anyone interested please go directly to my ghost gallery up at gumbyland so the music will play as it should. it's just not the same without it. older browsers work best like firefox, google chrome or internet explorer, even windows 10, but phones & tablets do not work. this pains me. my world is falling apart.

ghost

#infj #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #vampires #family #photos #loss #butterflies #rainydays #ESO

we're denying summer here & enjoying weeks of rainy days, i love stealing these days away from june.
so i've been going back in time looking through old photos & home movies & tapes..
way back in the day as a teenager i spent one summer working over my grandma's old film editor, splicing together our family's home movies going way back to the 50s, i later transferred them over to vhs & added music so i could present them to my mom one christmas..
(our family have always been avid photographers & filmmakers, guess it's in my blood?) since then i've been the one taking home movies of all of us, i have archived treasure that spans many decades..
i always love choosing just the right music for our drives up here in the pacific northwest for example..
then there's the glut of photographs since mr dad & i both share that interest, & toxic made audio cassette tapes of everything under the sun, so this installation came together recently as i've been thinking about family & everyone i've lost..

http://www.brensgumbyland.com/my%20rainy%20day%20time%20machine.html (sound up, but if the music doesn't play here :o please find my rainy day time machine installation at the ghost gallery directly, way down in the quarantine area..)

p.s. https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/bren-ghost-eso-vampire-x.html

ghost

#infj #paintings #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #vampire #stayinside #rainydays #denysummer

http://www.brensgumbyland.com/chrysalism.html (sound up)

ghost

#eso #infj #vampire #stayinside #ghostgallery #introvert #rowsofneveropeneddoors #gaming

in my element..
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/eso-bren-vampire-x.html

ghost

another dr's appt. i'm so tired.
depression scares me.
i used to cut when i felt this bad..
to make it stop, to dissociate, to go to sleep.
i notice on mychart my dr has pulled anorexia back up to the top of my dx list..
talk about time travel, i think i've gone back 20 years?

on a happier note, happy birthday lost & found!
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2020/06/lost-found-birthday.html

ghost

so i've been struggling to eat & breathe & live with my ibs anyway i can to avoid going in to the gi dr :( it's very demoralizing & puts me in a dark place..

unhappy meals? ~
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2020/07/mcd-happy-meal.html

ghost

#infj #vampire #introvert #stayinside #ptsd #ghostgallery #goth #rowsofneveropeneddoors

so last night i have to say i felt like i was experiencing shellshock trying to go to sleep with all the heavy duty (illegal) fireworks threatening all we hold dear. yeah i flat out hate the 4th of july. i have early childhood traumatic memories of alcoholic insanity, dead cats & fires. even all these years later i get ptsd.

& just when we'd spied 2 possible new feral kitties coming to visit our backyard.. we cleaned up their shelters & left food & water bowls full, the food disappears, hope they're not scared off.

oh & my birthday present came early..

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/around_the_bend/my-vampire-birthday.html

Verify your Comment

Previewing your Comment

This is only a preview. Your comment has not yet been posted.

Working...
Your comment could not be posted. Error type:
Your comment has been posted. Post another comment

The letters and numbers you entered did not match the image. Please try again.

As a final step before posting your comment, enter the letters and numbers you see in the image below. This prevents automated programs from posting comments.

Having trouble reading this image? View an alternate.

Working...

Post a comment

Your Information

(Name and email address are required. Email address will not be displayed with the comment.)

lost & found toys

Aroundthebend
visit my around the bend album (sound up) photos by ghost 2019 all rights reserved

cat girl

  • xx xx xx be wild.. xx xx xx

a handful of applecores a mouthful of razorblades

  • i am friendly ~ but i have edges..
  • seeing is deceiving..
  • $@x!^&*#%!/
  • love bites.
  • life sucks.
  • "but i don't want to go among mad people" Alice remarked.
    "oh, you can't help that," said the Cat:
    "we're all mad here.
    i'm mad. you're mad."
    "how do you know i'm mad?" said Alice.
    "you must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
    Alice didn't think that proved it at all;
    however, she went on "and how do you know that you're mad?"
    "to begin with," said the Cat, "a dog's not mad. you grant that?"
    "i suppose so," said Alice.
    "well, then," the Cat went on, "you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased.
    Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.."
  • but why is the rum gone?!
  • ***triggering!! don't look!!!*** (you looked..)
  • beezorch daddy-o! go! kitty, go!
  • ffft! hiss! spit! rah! kill! maim!
  • crank up your speakers!!

little friends..

Danradpic
back in the day ~
back when i was still a snowballinhell, including tabitha's kittens & little daniel..
copyright 2008 all rights reserved

friendlyghost fun & games!!

ghostfilms

Ghost
lost hollow digital art album ~
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

haunts

  • lunacy..
    CURRENT MOON
  • the happy haunts have received your sympathetic vibrations...

May 2020

Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
          1 2
3 4 5 6 7 8 9
10 11 12 13 14 15 16
17 18 19 20 21 22 23
24 25 26 27 28 29 30
31