darkwinter

i wonder at times if i might be finally losing my tired mind?

rowsofneveropeneddoors (sound up & go oldschool here, phones steal away the music) ghost gallery quarantine

he's curious about the eyeball around the bend

comments to follow..

bren

p.s. brenda (irish name meaning little raven)

lost toys (sound up)

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[ghost]

toxic was here.. #infj #innerchild #painter #ghostgallery #psychology #rowsofneveropeneddoors #childhood #ocd #phobia #eatingdisorder #dreams

more things behind the sun -

ocd: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e20240a5088c10200b-pi
butterfly box: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e20240a5088c1c200b-pi
booboo kitty: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/.a/6a00d834525fe869e20240a5088c15200b-pi

[ghost]

#infj #valentine #bats #unconventional #vampire #cats #valentinesday #eso #gaming #vampirevalentine

for valentine's day my hubby purchased for me a bag of newly minted bat quarters! they're on their way now :D
his gift is a very cool vintage jupiter 2 lost in space model to hang in his spaceroom ;)
(oh, & the standard homemade marionberry pie as per our longstanding tradition.)

& this was a wonderful surprise..
my sweet valentine: https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/friendlyghoststuff/sabrina-felina-eso-dibella.html

happy valentine's day!
https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/lost_found_vintage_toys/2020/02/flashback-friday-favorite-valentine.html

[ghost]

so i guess now i'm an outlaw..
#infj #ghostgallery #rowsofneveropeneddoors #agoraphobia #recluse #naturedetox #naturetherapy #psychology #fuckall

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/a_mouthfull_of_razorblade/fuck-all.html

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/around_the_bend/cartunes-glass-eyes.html

[ghost]

here comes the worm moon.. #infj #moon #ghostgallery #depression #rowsofneveropeneddoors #art #waterfalls #photography #migraine
also known as the crow moon as the calls of my corvid brothers & sisters signal the end of winter..
but our flowers are confused.. some cherry blossom petals are falling but our frozen daffodils are leaning over out front..
is it winter, is it spring?
yesterday we photographed waterfalls along the lewis river in washington state, but my vision problem persists making things difficult..
i see this snowflake in the center of my vision, it comes & goes but honestly i couldn't even see the green signs well enough to drive if i had to..
is it some kind of vascular migrainous scotoma that arrives without pain or aura & persists?
i'm as dr avoidant as it gets & not about to find out during a coronavirus pandemic.
we're avoiding humanity which is something we excel at..
but i really really don't want to end up blind.

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/around_the_bend/eyeball-in-spring.html

https://friendlyghost.typepad.com/photos/things_behind_the_sun/snowflakes.html

http://www.brensgumbyland.com/my%20photo%20album.html (updated: sound up)

lyrics from sufjan keep going through my head these days ~

tomorrow you’ll see it through
the clouded out disguises put you
in the room
& though i wandered out alone
a thousand lights abounded on our home
& i remember every sound it made
the clouded out disguises and the grave
so yeah i know i’m still afraid
of letting go of choices i have made

i’m not easily confused
the trouble with the storm
inside us grew
but i had so much to give
in spite of all the terror and abuse

& the people bowed and prayed
& what difference does it make
for you and me?
all delighted people raise their hands

& the people bowed and prayed
& what difference does it make?
it doesn’t matter anyway
the world surrounds us with its hate

hello darkness my old friend
it breaks my heart

i tried to save the things i made
oh but the world is a mess, but the world is a mess
& what difference does it make if the world is a mess?
if the world is a mess
i tried my best i tried in vain
oh but the world is a mess
the world is a mess

& the people bowed and prayed
oh i still love you a lot, oh i love you from the top of my heart
& you can see through my mistakes
oh i’ll tell it to you now, i’ll tell it from the top of my heart..

kaleidoscopes: http://www.brensgumbyland.com/ghostgallerykaleidoscopes.html (sound up)