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#2 is primal, especially the wraith world where i felt right at home.. what a relief to play a strong female for a change, and with scree the gargoyle at my side... loved this game and want more!!!
#3 is fable/fable:lost chapters/fable 2.. get lost in this incredible world and determine your own fate... good or evil.. or somewhere in between... fable 3 is out!!!
#4 city of lost children.. based on the french movie of the same name.. you are miette, an orphan, use your thieving and sneaking skills to free the childrens' souls from the evil inventor who is stealing their dreams...
tied at #4 the kingdom hearts games (2).. disney meets final fantasy! play in disney worlds alongside jack skellington in halloweentown, jack sparrow in the caribbean or alice at the mad tea party..
#5 is van helsing.. if you liked the movie, play this gothic masterpiece and face werewolves, the frankenstein monster, mr hyde and count dracula himself...
#6 are all of the lord of the rings games, which are all worth mastering, including the hobbit game.. (watch out for the spiders!)
& the old classic snes lord of the rings.. (another good old favorite.. i spent forever lost in the barrow downs...)
#7 are all the ultima games.. my favorites were 'quest of the avatar' and 'the false prophet'.. but if you like the classics try out 'black gate' and 'exodus' and the other oldies..
#8 is the original nes game shadowgate.. the one that turned me into an rpg junkie in the first place all those years ago.. hunched over my controller in the dark in my camper in the middle of the night.. still a classic...
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April 29, 2008

things i say may seem stranger than sunday changing to monday..

when the day is done
down to earth then
sinks the sun
along with everything
that was lost and won
when the day is done.. when the day is done
hope so much your race will be all run
then you find you jumped the gun
have to go back where you've begun
when the day is done.. when the night is cold
some get by but some get old
just to show life's not made of gold
when the night is cold..
when the bird has flown
got no one to call your own
got no place to call your home
when the bird has flown..
when the game's been fought
newspaper blown across the court
lost much sooner than you would have thought
now the game's been fought..
when the party's through
seems so very sad for you
didn't do the things you meant to do
now there's no time to start anew
now the party's through.. when the day is done
down to earth then sinks the sun
along with everything that was lost and won
when the day is done.
sanguisuga..

(i've been told there's a resemblance?)
~ghost
(the mirror thing is a myth.)
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get out & grab some..

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yesterday was my luckiest of lucky days i must say (to quote ed grimley..)first toxic got free gumby comics for gumbyland!! then buttonbunny accidentally sent me 2 sets of kool elliott smith buttons instead of one at no extra charge! (one to wear, one to put away like a proper collector..) then a bunch of pretty western tanagers froliced in the fir tree right outside my livingroom window, allowing me to take their picture!
http://img292.imageshack.us/img292/4527/westerntanager1na2.png
http://img292.imageshack.us/img292/1235/westertanagermaleec1.png
we tried an old fashioned pizza place here that's been around since 1965 (a very good year, i might add) and it was very good! the place was dark and full to the ceiling with every kind of vintage toy pedal car, ice cream/pop ads, a stuffed grizzley bear, and there was a bizarre carnival funhouse mirror too.. toxic likes! :)
then Guess! GUESS what happened? i was watching an item on ebay that i've been be-snip-ed on twice/thrice before? the tower exclusive series one version of american mcgee's alice (the one with the black/goth makeup & dress, glow-in-the-dark cheshire cat & much more blood spatters!!) and i SNAGGED i!t
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=200220136520&ssPageName=ADME:B:EOIBSA:US:1123
(third x a charm?)
i was so happy & hyper i kept spazzing out, but although i went to bed very late, i slept! ;z

happy ghost & toxic
(get it when ya can..)

Posted by: ghost | May 04, 2008 at 11:06 AM

what a beautiful day..
i feel happy today.
remarkable, huh?

http://www.brensgumbyland.com/images/ghosthide%20x.png

((where is ghost and what have you done with her!>?))
*snicker*

yeah it is me.. :)
ghost

Posted by: ghost | May 05, 2008 at 04:37 PM

well, i'm still a happy ghost because i found a site with a bunch of vintage halloween vinyl and downloaded great sounds & songs.. but my hands are shaking and my eyes feel all funny.. hearing feels tinny & odd too.. woke up with a migraine starting..
i wish my goth alice would arrive.. dusting off a place of honor on my bookshelves for her..
:)
ghost

Posted by: ghost | May 07, 2008 at 03:18 PM

no man is happy without a delusion of some kind.. delusions are as necessary to our happiness as realities.
-christian nestell bovee

Posted by: ghost | May 08, 2008 at 11:32 AM

ok.
i'm depressed again.
photo/phono sensitive.
:(
ghost

Posted by: ghost | May 08, 2008 at 04:03 PM

hey ghost....sorry your migraine took away your high....and now feeling depressed.....your a top ebayer like me, with 100%...A*** to you....haha...take care and speak soon....thumper...
just adding, sleepflower, great blog....havent watched rumblefish for years....must find it...X

Posted by: thumper | May 10, 2008 at 04:06 AM

oh dear, just looked at the A star thing....looks like a swear word...its not...haha...wont put that again....!!!! must learn to use preview first....but hey not going to remember that as keep forgetting to go to A/D site....!!! least it made me laugh....X

Posted by: thumper | May 10, 2008 at 04:14 AM

thumper,
over here at the ghost blog it gets pretty uncensored so it's all good! :)

yeah, i've been on ebay forever.. used to deal in vintage toys.. but i don't run many auctions these days..
ghost

Posted by: ghost | May 10, 2008 at 12:00 PM

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