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  • these are excerpts from the book toxic & i wrote about our childhood... it's called 'brenda was here'.. let me know what you think/comments? p.s. stories here are non fiction/true. (privately hosted ~ if you're interested in reading this just ask:)

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Beloved sleep
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remember me as you pass by.. as you are now so once was i.. as i am now so you will be.. prepare for death and follow me..
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this addition to the cemeteria album is especially for my own lost loved ones..
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is mr smith haunting portland? come see snaps of elliott smith landmarks & other local spots..
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january trees album ~
january trees ~ winter shows her bones.. the tree is the psyche, the spirit, the whole self.. our inner world..
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vintage socal, birthdays & halloweens..
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home to oblivion..

  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

ghost charity

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April 29, 2008


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yesterday was my luckiest of lucky days i must say (to quote ed grimley..)first toxic got free gumby comics for gumbyland!! then buttonbunny accidentally sent me 2 sets of kool elliott smith buttons instead of one at no extra charge! (one to wear, one to put away like a proper collector..) then a bunch of pretty western tanagers froliced in the fir tree right outside my livingroom window, allowing me to take their picture!
we tried an old fashioned pizza place here that's been around since 1965 (a very good year, i might add) and it was very good! the place was dark and full to the ceiling with every kind of vintage toy pedal car, ice cream/pop ads, a stuffed grizzley bear, and there was a bizarre carnival funhouse mirror too.. toxic likes! :)
then Guess! GUESS what happened? i was watching an item on ebay that i've been be-snip-ed on twice/thrice before? the tower exclusive series one version of american mcgee's alice (the one with the black/goth makeup & dress, glow-in-the-dark cheshire cat & much more blood spatters!!) and i SNAGGED i!t
(third x a charm?)
i was so happy & hyper i kept spazzing out, but although i went to bed very late, i slept! ;z

happy ghost & toxic
(get it when ya can..)


what a beautiful day..
i feel happy today.
remarkable, huh?

((where is ghost and what have you done with her!>?))

yeah it is me.. :)


well, i'm still a happy ghost because i found a site with a bunch of vintage halloween vinyl and downloaded great sounds & songs.. but my hands are shaking and my eyes feel all funny.. hearing feels tinny & odd too.. woke up with a migraine starting..
i wish my goth alice would arrive.. dusting off a place of honor on my bookshelves for her..


no man is happy without a delusion of some kind.. delusions are as necessary to our happiness as realities.
-christian nestell bovee


i'm depressed again.
photo/phono sensitive.


hey ghost....sorry your migraine took away your high....and now feeling depressed.....your a top ebayer like me, with 100%...A*** to you....haha...take care and speak soon....thumper...
just adding, sleepflower, great blog....havent watched rumblefish for years....must find it...X


oh dear, just looked at the A star thing....looks like a swear word...its not...haha...wont put that again....!!!! must learn to use preview first....but hey not going to remember that as keep forgetting to go to A/D site....!!! least it made me laugh....X


over here at the ghost blog it gets pretty uncensored so it's all good! :)

yeah, i've been on ebay forever.. used to deal in vintage toys.. but i don't run many auctions these days..

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