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  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
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    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

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November 03, 2007

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ghost

don't mind me..
i'm just here talking to myself where i feel safe..
i gotta confess here or somewhere that i have become the most reclusively agoraphobic/socialphobic ghost ever these days..
it's so cool to be talking to holly.. but then even via email i've realized i am so agoraphobic that i get all tense & panicky that i'll say the wrong thing somehow like an idiot and sound impolite? i dunno.. just fear of my own social ineptness/stupidity.. then last night i ventured out to buy a new laptop.. on this old one the screen falls shut or off of the back, the discdrive is broken, it heats up and fans come on over and over and the cord has caught fire not once but twice! it has been trying to die forever but i've been kicking it along..

anyway.. who else thinks that salespeople who shake your hand and do introductions should be taken out back of the store & shot?
and i don't want to explain my life story about what i do on my laptop.. i just want to fucking buy it. how hard does that need to be? i bailed out and left my husband & son to sort out the details and went off wandering through the cds/dvds and was approached by salespeople at every turn like a rat in a maze hitting tripwires! get me outtta here!!!!!! i panic and go into mindblank and just want to go home where i have good locks on my doors and curtains that close.. i am a nice person.. but i just cannot and must not ever interact with the humans. it makes me feel awful like a mental defective.. i'm incureable & i don't care. i'm more ocd than i used to be checking & counting.. but you know.. if it makes me feel safer, then i don't mind that either.
one fearful/avoidant ghost

oh man.
this is just not our day..
my husband left for work in a light rain just before light..
and then called me 15 minutes later as he had been in a major accident on the freeway.
he is ok, which is a miracle.. it was on the news and everything..

according to a very nice witness the other driver was driving erratically.. did a 3 lane change (no signal) behind my husband's truck into the fast lane beside him and then had to stop suddenly and was hit by the car he cut off in that lane right into a bigrig behind my husband, which hit them both.. and somehow he turned right into my husband's driver's side, literally ramming up under the truck lifting it up with sparks flying and sent him spinning across the freeway..
he is used to recovering himself on ice and automatically tried to turn into the spin or he would've actually flipped over.. thank god he had on his seatbelt..
after 3 or 4 spins he ended up way up the road over on the right and no one else hit him! the witness was sure he'd have broken legs or something.. was amazed he was ok..
we were trying to run the gas out of this truck/guzzler and switch to our old cavalier to save money so there was little gas in the tank or it could've blown..

the truck is totalled & undriveable and we had no collision ins. only personal & liability.. the person's license plate is our souvenir, it was embedded face down in the driver's side door!

we are screwed.. may end up in small claims court?

but i just thank god he's ok.
ghost

i'm kinda worried..
getting my young'n all ready to go out on his wilderness survival overnighter with a big storm coming.. :/

he & his class will be up near mt hood and probably out of cel range..? we bought him a new mummy bag rated to 0 degrees.. and i'm making sure he's packed up with anything he might need..
yeah, i know he's 19.. but i'm still a mom. you don't screw around up here with mother nature, you know?
hope all goes ok..
ghost

ghost

he's opting out..
we're in one of our famous windstorms here at the gorge, with rain & freezing night temps on the way.. none of us could sleep watching the deteriorating weather conditions.. instructor has changed trip locations last minute due to it, but it's too late.. i'm kinda glad.. dan's never even camped overnight before, he was in over his head.. i know him and he wouldn't sleep a wink all night sitting up in the rain under a blowing tarp looking for bears? the storm is coming in faster than they first thought..
i mean what kind of instructor takes students out to an 'undisclosed' location to possibly get lost orienteering in the rain well out of cel range?
seemed really imprudent to us.

maybe we're overprotective?
so sue us.. i don't care anymore what other people think.. i just trust less and less the more i interact with the 'outside' world of the humans..
we couldn't sleep worrying over it..
why he didn't just plan the trip for last week when weather was beautiful and they had nothing planned in class i just do not understand..
ghost

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