oh why.. oh why?

dancing on the highway
/daily smith
here if you want me
listening so close
from far away
i memorized
what you told me
like a foreigner on holiday
i know to smile at confusion
and not forget the soul that smiles on me
dancing on the highway
the broken line that led from you to me
well i'll be at my station all night
so come on by if you feel like
still here if you want me
look at what i can do with empty time
a lost love that likes to haunt me
is waiting 'round to meet me when i die
death surrounds protects the living
this is what you said and i agreed not to be unforgiving
just because your soul's untimely free
still here if you want me, my love
dancing on the highway
but your sun still burns my eye
oh why? oh why?

true love/daily smith
true love is a rose behind glass
that's locked and kept closed
maybe just to me
'cause my heart's been attacked
and shattered by tough love, bad love
so i bought mine off the street
true love, man, it just can't be beat
i felt so complete
married to heavenly bodies above
and each night i'd look up
at a bright honey moon
'cause it sure seemed built to last
even after my honey moon passed
i kept right with it, man
like a ghost to a house it once haunted
day after day
i'd steal with my true love away
to some hide*out where left undisturbed
we could do what we wanted
but i started to feel like a liar
saying i love you
madly in love or mad mean
there was no in between
it came on and on
i found i can't make a stand
i'm her hired hand
i have to do harm
one day i got sick
she played me a nasty old trick
said i need cigarettes
walked 'round the block
and caught a cab
stayed gone for too long
my love had gotten so strong
just to try to being back on my own
i had to go to rehab
all i need is a safe place to bleed
is this where it's at?
half of no chance
steps in a dance
rest of my life spent in combat
now i'm the king of the ward
'cause i'm good and i swallow my sword
puke it out
for the doctor to write me a new prescription
tranquil as a dove
people that have lost their true love
they all seem to fit the same description
i feel cold, useless and old
i wish i was no one
take me up, my lord
take me up today
take me out of this place
take me up with you today.

 

you're in a better place, elliott..
xo
ghost

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[ghost]

it's day 7 of this particular migraine. i've never been in so much pain before as this time.. as tonight. i would give anything if i only had one person i could trust.. and have a feeling of security from that. if i could only have that feeling of security my whole quality of life would change from hell to heaven.. even if i still had this incredible pain. it's nice on tv to see the fortunate people who have these 'interventions' when their lives are on the line.. but for the rest of us left out hanging on the edge alone, there is no one. we're just flapping in the breeze until we fall and die. most days i hope i will. but for now i'm still here to take care of my 7. we need each other because we are all we have. if it weren't for them i'd probably walk right into the closest mental hospital and voluntarily admit myself even if it meant letting them cram me to the top with effexor to their black hearts' content. just for any sense of security at all.
on second thought no i wouldn't.
i'd jump first.

[ghost]

oh god.
day 7 was 12 hours straight of the most intense migraine pain i have ever experienced.. my eyes & teeth still ache today and the migraine is still not yet gone.
somebody please just take me out back and cap me like old yeller..

by the way..
this is the little terror who is scaring miss tabitha to pieces in the middle of the night at our upper deck..
http://img148.imageshack.us/img148/1156/hpim3589ag0.jpg

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[ghost]

i actually felt happy this morning.. driving in the cold sunshine & leaves.. without any pain for the first time in recent memory..
i must admit i love the sick feeling of accellerating down the big hills without brakes.. when there are no red lights or slowpokes to spoil my fun..
afterall.. it's like free gas..
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