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Scandalous
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  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

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March 18, 2007

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Tracy

Hey Ghost. Thanks...it helps so much having someone who really understands. si is so hard to explain it helps that you just get it. i'm feeling better now. I have less shakes but still need the ativan and xanax. Without them i don't think i could sleep. ugh, i have therapy tomorrow night. i'm so nervous because i have been cutting more lately and they totally freaked me out last time. i'm afraid my therapist will be mad at me. i actually really like her. she makes me think. my last therapist was not so good. we mostly talked about music and when i talked about the man in my head he told me i better not be getting crazy on him. so this new therapist is really good but i just know she's going to hate me. people always end up not wanting to deal with me. and i think i'm getting fat again which is freaking me out. i can't tell though bc i always think i look fat. the whole meds thing was very scary. i feel like i'll never be authentic again. i'm not sure there is a real me anymore. i loved the cemeteria pictures. they were hauntingly beautiful!! i love old cemeteries. there is something lingering...time holding on somehow. i've never listened ot elliot smith. you have certainly made me interested though. i'm going to a concert this friday...taste of chaos tour. hopefully it will be fun though i am going alone. and crowds always make it hard to act normal, i get all nervous. well...i should get ready for bed...work in the morning and all. hope you're doing excellent and being super good to yourself. meow from luna. nite - tracy (btw, love the use of cool beans!!)

ghost

tracy, try to have fun at the concert.. i still have the same problem around people, i think we just must be wired to be that way?

yeah, that sounded scary to go through.. i can't bear when i have to put myself into the hands of drs.. eeeek!! so i don't know how you do it..

as for feeling fat.. i have the same problem not knowing if i can trust my own perception anymore.. bdhp (bigdaddyhamburgerpatty)
says i'm 'boney' and pushes food.. and i'm at my limit for what weight i can stand! i try to chill and resist the urge to 'fix' it every day..

i hope this turns out to be a good match for you with the therapist.. i just don't like ones that give you an ultimatum.. that's a deal breaker.. i mean, how can you be honest if there's that kind of pressure, ya know?
i think with si that just almost compels us to cut more..
and what a moronic comment from the other guy!
..

i'm glad you like the cemeteria pix.. a posthumous elliott smith double cd is coming out on may 8th.. we've all been waiting for it.. but you should try out the one that came out after his death 'from a basement on the hill' *****!
oh! there's samples of him all over the place here too!

well, my kitties are starting to pile up on me..
night night time..
sweet dreams,
ghost

ghost

ug..
too many bad days in a row.
ghost

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