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we live in wonderland.. :)
i hope you enjoy me & my guys & kitties, the places we go & things we enjoy..
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Beloved sleep
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remember me as you pass by.. as you are now so once was i.. as i am now so you will be.. prepare for death and follow me..
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Scandalous
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this addition to the cemeteria album is especially for my own lost loved ones..
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home to oblivion..


  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

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November 23, 2006

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ghost

i get depressed like this.. but then i gotta wonder what kind of thanksgiving my sister's having in whatever facility she's in..

emma

The Holidays are a big set up. I boil them down. Thanksgiving is just turkey for dinner. Christmas is a day that Shane gets gifts and we have turkey for dinner again. That's all. Did you list "No Expectations" on the songs at the other site? If not, probably belongs :) Fuck the hype. Its a set up. A big bear trap. Don't get your legs chopped off!

Most of the humans you see Ghost, are all busted up inside too. Most just have no idea. I don't know whether to pity them or envy them.

What happened to the other post about the secret message? I was going to put a lot of effort into failing to figure that out :)

ghost

same here.. we look forward to the turkey & pie for both holidays.. and we've already bought dan his final fantasy 12 w/ ltd ed guide and hidden it away.. but it's just sad now except for the comfort of tryptophan and a nice nap after all the work..
it reminds me of my relatives and i wonder about them..

well, i dragged myself kicking & screaming to the dr and i'm on antibiotics now.. in two weeks if the lump is not gone he said i'll have to have it biopsied..
if it's lymphoma i should know by christmas..

..

better pick which bridge/waterfall.. just in case?

on a lighter note.. see now em, ya gotta pawn jr's violin or somethin' and get an xbox.. you know that freaky burger king with the big head? if you buy a value meal at bk you can get games for $4 each that are a blast.. i'm playing pocketbike racer.. racing the king himself around on weird tracks doing wheelies and stoppies tony hawk style.. too much fun.. :) cracks me up! better than prozac!

emma

Geez, and I used to think coal was a bad gift on Christmas. Well lets keep our fingers crossed about the antibiotic. I once found a lump in my arm pit. That was a fun couple of weeks. Was nothing. Hope yours is nothing too. HA! hope you get NOTHING for Christmas :)

I can't think of anything to sell. He wants to keep his playstation (or whatever it is). If I didn't go to therapy for a few weeks... gag! hissy fit!!! tantrum!!!

ghost

you know nothing is probably what our xmas will be this year.. but at least we got our frontyard display set up in between storms.. i'll get a pic out there if it snows..

the original playstation has some good games too..
it's a ripoff that they don't make each system backward compatible so that you can simply trade up and not lose older games..

man i spent a night of panic attacks last night.. just waking me up one right after the other.. i don't know why.. i never really know why.. i think i'm just wired that way from when i was a kid? my whole life has been about fear.. dread, anxiety, worry, panic, or terror.. except for the nice dissociated days of childhood.. well.. even then i always knew it lurked right around the corner..
i discovered the whole concept of ad originally by reading about agoraphobia online.. there is an insecure attachment theory to agoraphobia..
i think it was persevere that told me fear was the absence of love/god..
geez.. nobody has prayed more.. literally obsessive/compulsively since childhood.. i mean, i hang onto him.. so why don't i ever feel anything holding onto me?
not fair if i can't help it.. you know?
oh well..

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