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  • these are excerpts from the book toxic & i wrote about our childhood... it's called 'brenda was here'.. let me know what you think/comments? p.s. stories here are non fiction/true. (privately hosted ~ if you're interested in reading this just ask:)

vintage kids can come & visit the ghost toy catalogue here.. (sound up)
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Beloved sleep
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remember me as you pass by.. as you are now so once was i.. as i am now so you will be.. prepare for death and follow me..
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this addition to the cemeteria album is especially for my own lost loved ones..
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portland haunts album ~
is mr smith haunting portland? come see snaps of elliott smith landmarks & other local spots..
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things behind the sun (journals)
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Laurelhurst trees
january trees album ~
january trees ~ winter shows her bones.. the tree is the psyche, the spirit, the whole self.. our inner world..
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halloween mini album ~
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home to oblivion..

  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

ghost charity

ghost space

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November 20, 2006


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well i figure em is hitting the books after that failed test.. final exams..
and no one has vandalized the robot pic so that is something..
i'm still lurking about alive and unwell.. think this lump in my throat just showed up to cancel my thanksgiving dinner..
that's not fair..
i'm going back to oblivion to not think about anything right now.. maybe it will just go away.. and everything else too somehow? i like sleeping in the cold and rain like this.. when i can shut off my stupid little brain.. i feel just like i'm really hibernating.. maybe the weeks and months will pass me by and i'll peek out in the springtime.. then again.. maybe i won't.

the big update in oblivion is out today so i gotta go set it up with my son.. i can't do the quest, which is an elaborate knights of the realm type of deal.. my infamy is too high.. in other words my sins are too great..
i would have to go on a long pilgrimage to pay pennance.. very long..
some other day..

my stats say:
days as a vampyre - 277
necks bitten - 171
books read - 1117
ingredients eaten - 380
days jailed - 10
largest bounty - 4040
assaults - 187
murders - 30
creatures killed - 965
people killed - 487
locks picked - 665
items stolen - 10,643
souls trapped - 2
jokes told - 0


You are a busy little vampire! Love that your such a sinnner :) Shane really wants that xbox360, but man, its $400!! Not likely to happen anytime soon. Not sure we can even swing it for Christmas. What is this lump? Is it around a gland?


no games for xmas?
i getchya though.. did you see people killing each other to get the new ps3s?!
dan wanted to get out there and fight for one, but we can't afford it...

this strange lump appeared on my tonsil.. no sore throat, just this thing that looks bad.. i'm chicken! maybe i'll set a dr's appt. but i was hoping it would magically disappear...


instead of going to a dr..
i spent yesterday doing the really important stuff.. put up the new elliott smith lyrics page 'from a poison well'
(link on the left)
i still have to correct some of the rares.. but my eyes were just burnt up like little red cinders, man..
gotta put this laptop down!
yeah right...


Hey Ghost! Happy Thanksgiving!!!

If it makes you feel any better, I would be doing the same thing about the tonsil thing :( Sit and wait for the miracle cure!

I imagine you wearing your laptop like a necklace :)


well, i actually tried calling again yesterday to see if i could get in friday or monday.. not.
i can call tomorrow a.m. and fight for a spot with all the others... ... ..

it's a cold & stormy t-day here in the rose city..
i think elliott's ghost came to visit me.. he likes the new lyrics page.. and the ghostunes..
i think he shared something secret about himself to me.. it's in the words if you listen closely..
but i'll never tell.

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    "how do you know i'm mad?" said Alice.
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    "i suppose so," said Alice.
    "well, then," the Cat went on, "you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased.
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