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a ghost.. a real ghost.. has no need to die.. what is she except a being without access to the universe that she has not yet managed to forget?
~ randall jarrell

i officially talk to myself here in the comments, or to visitors as long as they're not robots.. any comments are welcome ;)
rows of never opened doors:
ghost gallery quarantine area (use a laptop or pc with firefox or google chrome browser for essential music, no phones)
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all rights reserved..
my photo albums (sound up!)

ghost stories
(blood & butterflies..)

  • these are excerpts from the book toxic & i wrote about our childhood... it's called 'brenda was here'.. let me know what you think/comments? p.s. stories here are non fiction/true. (privately hosted ~ if you're interested in reading this just ask:)

vintage kids can come & visit the ghost toy catalogue here.. (sound up)
the friendlyghost album ~ welcome to my photo album..
we live in wonderland.. :)
i hope you enjoy me & my guys & kitties, the places we go & things we enjoy..
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Beloved sleep
cemeteria album ~
remember me as you pass by.. as you are now so once was i.. as i am now so you will be.. prepare for death and follow me..
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family tree album ~
this addition to the cemeteria album is especially for my own lost loved ones..
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a POEtry reading...

my elliott smith lyric page (sound up)
portland haunts album ~
is mr smith haunting portland? come see snaps of elliott smith landmarks & other local spots..
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the library..

things behind the sun (journals)
a mouthfull of razorblades (journals)
ghost at the gate's items Go to ghost at the gate's photostream
Laurelhurst trees
january trees album ~
january trees ~ winter shows her bones.. the tree is the psyche, the spirit, the whole self.. our inner world..
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toxic was here ~
vintage socal, birthdays & halloweens..
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art albums ~ use a laptop or pc with sound up!

halloween mini album ~
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Bren alice patreon
ghost pix album ~ rpg videogame screenshots, lol kitties & all kinds of goodies.. (use a pc or laptop to hear my game mix here)

home to oblivion..

  • ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
    later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
    update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
    SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
    & more dlc to come!
    the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..

  • come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)

  • so many ways to die..

  • realms of madness..

  • a friend in highcross town..

  • bonus morrowind footage..

  • welcome to skyrim..

ghost closet...

haunted home movies..

ghost charity

ghost space

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November 08, 2006


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Sorry to hear about your blog being terrorized :( I hope it gets settled soon. Some people have nothing better to do with their meaningless lives. It's sad, we had people like that at SIA and it can be rather depressing!! So I feel your pain, and don't let them get you down girl! Love ya!


thanks so much..
it really has been depressing.. i miss the drawing pad.. never thought i made enemies but some people just have nothing better to do but be anonymously mean.. it's so chickenshit.

guess we have a real poltergeist here now..?


so i guess now they fucked up the tunefeed? why don't you just post a real comment and show your pathetic self, motherfucker?

I made it in! I had some trouble at first because I was misspelling meow :(

I'M BACK!!!!!!!

I missed ya ghost.


it's cold way down here in the deepfreeze...

man, i'm bummed about all this crap.. trying to fix this and eating up all the tylenol..

hey, at least it works.. you got here!

it's safe as a bombshelter now.. a true ghost blog..


I'm repeating what I wrote at safe haven. Ghost, open up again and lets go to war against these fucks. We can outlast them. We can. Sticks and stones will never reach us here.


hey the tunes came back!
'these boots'.. toxic's blast from the past..

em, sure enough nothing will ever reach us here.. except by invite only..
now i gotta go save gumbyland! brb...
(no longer that friendly)


Yeah! Now yer talkin' !!!!!

Kickin ass and takin names!

Off to save gumbyland? Here, you'll need a cape.

Take this /\

Blood, guts and veins in yer teeth ghost!!!!


all the little gumbys & pokeys are safe.. gumbyland is good.. and the board's back & tested..
waiting for your next masterpiece, em!!

i mixed up the earsplitter mix with some eclectica..
so whatchya wanna hear next? i got retro rock, new wave, grunge, soft 70's classics.. yeah..
that sounds good.. i'll take us back a few decades tomorrow... ...


You know this is the coolest blog site ever, It's a shame that you have to password protect it, but if that's what it takes to protect something that's obviously not only very personal but precious to you, then so be it. It is a shame though, this blog provides an outlet of creativity and a window into your world and what makes you special and unique. Most of all it provides measured exposure for someone who has remained, most of her life the best kept secret on the planet. One wouldn't think that having a little special place to call your own in cyberspace was too much to ask for. A place where not only could you finally make contact and receive and give support but maybe, just maybe those that have known you outside in the real world might get a free unfiltered and unprotected place where they could get a little truth.


you'd think my little corner of the universe is small enough it would be safe.. but evil surrounds us everywhere, man.. possibly in the form of automated robots?
they'll come for us when we're old! and they're strong.. 'cause they're made of metal and they have strong hands...

loveya, bdhp..
now we have a blog bouncer.. my own personal gorilla.. easy big guy!!

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    "how do you know i'm mad?" said Alice.
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