climbing back out...?

here we go again:
days no s.i. - 3    days no alcohol - 330
good news for me is i've lost a couple lbs. so i feel better...

bina bear (sabina) has started a message board here:
attachment board

atoms for peace

no more going to the dark side with your flying saucer eyes..
no more falling down a wormhole that i have to pull you out..
the wriggling, squiggling worm inside
devours from the inside out..
no more talk about the old days
it's time for something great
i want you to get out
and make it work
so many allies
so many allies
so many allies
so feel the love come off of them
and take me in your arms..

peel all of your layers off
i want to eat your artichoke heart
no more leaky holes in your brain
and no false starts
i wanna get out
and make it work
so many allies
so many allies
so many allies
so feel the love come off of them
and take me in your arms
i wanna get out
and make it work
i want you to get out
and make it work

it'll be ok..

-thom yorke
p.s. an excellent interpretation of this song's possible message:
atoms for peace

ghost

update:
2 new installations in sg #2!!
it's my 9th day & i'm depressed..
thoughts again of self-injury...
still battling the eating disorder dilemma,
over the weekend nearly made myself pass out
out in the heat, hadn't eaten/drank enough??
i really appreciate my new friends and don't
want to disappoint anyone..
but i can't help being the way i am i guess..
nothing touches what's most wrong..

this is from opeth: closure
heal myself.. a feather on my heart
look inside.. there never was a start
peel myself.. dispose of severed skin
all subsides.. around me and within
there's nothing painful in this
there's no upheaval
redemption for my pathos
all sins undone
awaiting word on what's to come
in helpless prayers a hope lives on
'cause i've come clean i've forgotten what i promised
in the rays of the sun
i am longing for the darkness...
-ghost

p.s. this place is not unlike the winchester mystery house..
i can't seem to stop adding windows to walls.. and stairways and doorways to nowhere...

Comments

[Emma]

OK chicklette. 3 days. Good for you.

3 days. Can't you hear KD lange sing "3 days filled with pain and sorrow: yesterday, today and tomorrow". Hmmm...now I hear Willie Nelson singing it:)

Guess what I found in my cd mess (I'd call it a collection, but, really, it's just a mess)? You guessed it Elliot Smith. Where the hell did that come from? Spooky ghost Never even heard of the guy until you. Then the other day I'm sifting through the cd mess and I find a disk with Elliot Smith hand written on it. Guess I have to listen now :)

Are you going to Bina's site?

[friendlyghost]

em,
i like kd's 'absolute torch & twang' but don't know the song...
about mr smith:
it must be destiny that you give him a listen!!
i went to bina's board and registered, it takes a day to get 'approved' i guess..
it looks cool there, only bina and alone there so far, but it's laid out really well..
i'll go in very cautiously...
ghost

[friendlyghost]

em..
what did you think of mr smith?
oh yeah, and did you find the poem you mentioned?
ghost

[Amby]

Hey there my friendly little ghost friend! I told you I'd come visit again as soon as I could, and I have.

Three days is always a start!

I registered at Bina's site, but.. Well.. I'm not sure what it's about? But I know when I had my website every member counted! Even if they weren't active!!

Anywho. I'll check back there when I get approved.

Hugs!!

[friendlyghost]

hey amby,
i sent you an email at the new hotmail address, but it got returned so i sent it to the old address, don't know if you got it??
i explained about the new board & stuff...
bren

[friendlyghost]

oh p.s. twinkletoes huh?
hehe...
you know i'll end up just calling you toes?? hehe!!