think i'm sick again..

i'm not hungry anymore..
it's ok though, because the longer i don't eat the better i feel, it's a familiar kind of sick..
i'm just too lonely and have lost too much..
today we drove all the way around mt hood through forest and apple orchards.. we saw pretty cows and wild lavendar and mt st helens not far away.. people were burning leaves and applewood, it smelled really good.. the mountains are still covered in snow..
now i'm home again and it's blowing rain against the windows..

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smith for today

stickman

i sit here shooting blanks
out of emptiness
ain’t nothing really want to kill
maybe time I guess..
i sit and spin the world on it's flipside
and i listen backwards for meaning
'cause i’m a stickman
i live with one dimension dead..
trying not to think too many moves ahead..

i draw from memory
the stillest kind of life
slide after slide
with metal pains as sharp as knives..
project what’s done so everyone can see
to me it's just a rehearsal
and i'm a stickman
in frames that go
one by one
if i sped it up
you'd see i'm on the run
from some monster off screen
killing suns..
lonely makes me blue
envy turns me green

hate might paint me red
if i load my magazine
but not just now when its easy to stay clean
when no one sees where you're bleeding..
and i'm a stickman
stickman..
stickman...

Comments

[bigdaddyhamburgerpatty]

Hey this is a really cool blog...i know your tired and lonely...i love you very much...part of the reason i enjoyed the drive was because i got to enjoy it with you.

[friendlyghost]

cool kitty loves big daddy hamburger patty...

[friendlyghost]

yeah...
he was around helping me with this magnificent growing blog! i'm loving it here.. all i need now is a virtual krispy kreme and a couple of good dark rides... hm..