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a ghost.. a real ghost.. has no need to die.. what is he except a being without access to the universe that he has not yet managed to forget?
~ randall jarrell

i officially talk to myself here in the comments, or to visitors as long as they're not robots..

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ghost toy catalogue

an inventory of toys & collectibles vintage & new including toxic's toys, toxic's library & halloweeniana..

~ copyright 2011 all rights reserved

the friendlyghost album ~ welcome to my photo album..
we live in wonderland.. :)
i hope you enjoy me & my guys & kitties, the places we go & things we enjoy..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

cemeteria album ~
remember me as you pass by.. as you are now so once was i.. as i am now so you will be.. prepare for death and follow me..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

family tree album ~
this addition to the cemeteria album is especially for my own lost loved ones..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

a POEtry reading...

elliott smith & portland

portland haunts album ~
is mr smith haunting portland? come see snaps of elliott smith landmarks & other local spots..
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ghost links..

XXX..............RIP..............XXX here lies the psychconnection archive.. click here to peruse the remains (what's left after many members' posts were removed) of our dead support forum in the deepfreeze of this cybermorgue..
go ask alice when she's 10 feet tall... this alice is my other self.. she's always there lurking behind me...
papercuts ~
(my poetry & short stories...)
WARNING! this site contains graphic language and subject matter related to self injury...
soon after dark, emily cries... gazing through trees in sorrow, hardly a sound till tomorrow... cosmic debris/emily strange
last.. but not least.. my website.. where all the happy little gumbys & pokeys have come home to gumbyland.. the secret gallery.. and other cool stuff..

the library..

things behind the sun (journals)

a mouthfull of razorblades (journals)

ghost stories..

these are excerpts from the book toxic & i wrote about our childhood... it's called 'brenda was here'.. i'll try to randomly change the excerpts from time to time... let me know what you think/comments? p.s. all of the stories here are non fiction / true.

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january trees album ~
january trees ~ winter shows her bones.. the tree is the psyche, the spirit, the whole self.. our inner world..
~ copyright 2008 all rights reserved

toxic was here ~
vintage socal, birthdays & halloweens..
copyright 2008 all rights reserved

mini albums etc..

halloween mini album ~
~ copyright 2015 all rights reserved

self-injury support links..

american mcgee's alice... she looks kinda familiar? ...!
safehaven -
i'm snowballinhell here...
WARNING!* these sites contain graphic language and/or images & subject matter related to self injury...
broken smiles -
i'm snowballinhell here..
WARNING!*
alice through the looking glass.. go ask alice.. i think she'll know..
INVALIDATION kills.
down the rabbit hole..
i'm snowballinhell here..
WARNING!*
this site has links to a whole bunch of self-injury support forums..

ghost gamelinks..

ghost's top eleven rpg's:
#1 ~ down the rabbit hole... "here's a riddle.. when is a croquet mallet like a billy club? ..i'll tell you... whenever you want it to be..." cheshire cat to alice (american mcgee's alice: the original) this game is my favorite above all others...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you thank you mr mcgee for alice madness returns!!! (with the original i still rate these the best!)
#2 is primal, especially the wraith world where i felt right at home.. what a relief to play a strong female for a change, and with scree the gargoyle at my side... loved this game and want more!!!
#3 is fable/fable:lost chapters/fable 2.. get lost in this incredible world and determine your own fate... good or evil.. or somewhere in between... fable 3 is out!!!
#4 city of lost children.. based on the french movie of the same name.. you are miette, an orphan, use your thieving and sneaking skills to free the childrens' souls from the evil inventor who is stealing their dreams...
tied at #4 the kingdom hearts games (2).. disney meets final fantasy! play in disney worlds alongside jack skellington in halloweentown, jack sparrow in the caribbean or alice at the mad tea party..
#5 is van helsing.. if you liked the movie, play this gothic masterpiece and face werewolves, the frankenstein monster, mr hyde and count dracula himself...
#6 are all of the lord of the rings games, which are all worth mastering, including the hobbit game.. (watch out for the spiders!)
& the old classic snes lord of the rings.. (another good old favorite.. i spent forever lost in the barrow downs...)
#7 are all the ultima games.. my favorites were 'quest of the avatar' and 'the false prophet'.. but if you like the classics try out 'black gate' and 'exodus' and the other oldies..
#8 is the original nes game shadowgate.. the one that turned me into an rpg junkie in the first place all those years ago.. hunched over my controller in the dark in my camper in the middle of the night.. still a classic...
#9 is final fantasy, but i'm an old time gamer, so i mean the original final fantasy games on nes/snes like 1, 2, 3 + mystic quest.. still the best even without the graphics of the newer games...
#10 is lemony snickett's series of unfortunate events.. ok, so this game is not terribly hard..
(i was able to complete it even while fairly intoxicated..) it is still creative and fun if you enjoyed the movie, which i did...
i needed a #11 on my list for all the honorable mentions.. unforgettable games like wizardry, king arthur's world, tombs & treasures, deja vu, faxanadu, the immortal, breath of fire and the dragon warrior games.. also baldur's gate, the ren & stimpy games that wrecked my nerves, zombies ate my neighbors, fester's quest, maniac mansion!!! ...gasp... too many to remember... aargghh! all those years spent in the dark deep in some labyrinth scribbling cryptic notes and maps.. is that what is was that made me mad? or did they save me from madness...? the world may never know.. (p.s. i never made it without biting..)
!X! a bonus: i absolutely approve of the gamecube's eternal darkness: sanity's requiem.. lovecraftian & hallucinogenic.. i dare you!
the post-apocalyptic fallout games, F3, new vegas & F4 coming soon!
dante's inferno ~ go to hell!
gothic victorian lovecraftian bloodshed :D bloodborne!

ghost pix album ~ rpg videogame screenshots, lol kitties & all kinds of goodies..

our game gallery..

home to oblivion..

ok i need a whole section just for elder scrolls~oblivion 'cause i'm playing it and loving it way too much right now.. i am so beautifully lost here living as a vampire & i'm never coming back.
later ~ 430 hours of gameplay all as a vampire & now i'm stuck in limbo in the deadly glitch.. noooo!!
update: i'm on the methadone of rpgs for my oblivion withdrawls, it's predecessor morrowind ~ the game of the year edition.. these are now my All-Time favorite rpgs, above all others..
NEW ELDER SCROLLS!!
SKYRIM!! 11/11/11!! DAWNGUARD DLC!!
& more dlc to come!
the awful tyranny of the sun shall end..
come into oblivion with me & tour my homes.. (note: vampirism has changed my appearance & my invisibility is due to stealth..)
so many ways to die..
realms of madness..
a friend in highcross town..
bonus morrowind footage..
welcome to skyrim..

featured ghosttube..

baby tabitha begs pitifully at the back door.. she now has over 300,000 views!
p.s. i am not a godless soulless monster..

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a handful of applecores a mouthful of razorblades

i am friendly ~ but i have edges..
seeing is deceiving..
$@x!^&*#%!/
love bites.
life sucks.
"but i don't want to go among mad people" Alice remarked.
"oh, you can't help that," said the Cat:
"we're all mad here.
i'm mad. you're mad."
"how do you know i'm mad?" said Alice.
"you must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
Alice didn't think that proved it at all;
however, she went on "and how do you know that you're mad?"
"to begin with," said the Cat, "a dog's not mad. you grant that?"
"i suppose so," said Alice.
"well, then," the Cat went on, "you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased.
Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.."
but why is the rum gone?!
***triggering!! don't look!!!*** (you looked..)
beezorch daddy-o! go! kitty, go!
ffft! hiss! spit! rah! kill! maim!
crank up your speakers!!

x

ulalume

by Edgar Allan Poe

The skies they were ashen and sober;
The leaves they were crisped and sere-
The leaves they were withering and sere;
It was night in the lonesome October
Of my most immemorial year;
It was hard by the dim lake of Auber,
In the misty mid region of Weir-
It was down by the dank tarn of Auber,
In the ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir.

Here once, through an alley Titanic,
Of cypress, I roamed with my Soul-
Of cypress, with Psyche, my Soul.
These were days when my heart was volcanic
As the scoriac rivers that roll-
As the lavas that restlessly roll
Their sulphurous currents down Yaanek
In the ultimate climes of the pole-
That groan as they roll down Mount Yaanek
In the realms of the boreal pole.

Our talk had been serious and sober,
But our thoughts they were palsied and sere-
Our memories were treacherous and sere-
For we knew not the month was October,
And we marked not the night of the year-
(Ah, night of all nights in the year!)
We noted not the dim lake of Auber-
(Though once we had journeyed down here),
Remembered not the dank tarn of Auber,
Nor the ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir.

And now, as the night was senescent,
And star-dials pointed to morn-
As the star-dials hinted of morn-
At the end of our path a liquescent
And nebulous lustre was born,
Out of which a miraculous crescent
Arose with a duplicate horn-
Astarte's bediamonded crescent
Distinct with its duplicate horn.

And I said–"She is warmer than Dian:
She rolls through an ether of sighs-
She revels in a region of sighs:
She has seen that the tears are not dry on
These cheeks, where the worm never dies,
And has come past the stars of the Lion,
To point us the path to the skies-
To the Lethean peace of the skies-
Come up, in despite of the Lion,
To shine on us with her bright eyes-
Come up through the lair of the Lion,
With love in her luminous eyes."

But Psyche, uplifting her finger,
Said–"Sadly this star I mistrust-
Her pallor I strangely mistrust:-
Oh, hasten!–oh, let us not linger!
Oh, fly!–let us fly!–for we must."
In terror she spoke, letting sink her
Wings until they trailed in the dust-
In agony sobbed, letting sink her
Plumes till they trailed in the dust-
Till they sorrowfully trailed in the dust.

I replied–"This is nothing but dreaming:
Let us on by this tremulous light!
Let us bathe in this crystalline light!
Its Sybilic splendor is beaming
With Hope and in Beauty to-night:-
See!–it flickers up the sky through the night!
Ah, we safely may trust to its gleaming,
And be sure it will lead us aright-
We safely may trust to a gleaming
That cannot but guide us aright,
Since it flickers up to Heaven through the night."

Thus I pacified Psyche and kissed her,
And tempted her out of her gloom-
And conquered her scruples and gloom;
And we passed to the end of the vista,
But were stopped by the door of a tomb-
By the door of a legended tomb;
And I said–"What is written, sweet sister,
On the door of this legended tomb?"
She replied–"Ulalume–Ulalume-
'Tis the vault of thy lost Ulalume!"

Then my heart it grew ashen and sober
As the leaves that were crisped and sere-
As the leaves that were withering and sere-
And I cried–"It was surely October
On this very night of last year
That I journeyed–I journeyed down here-
That I brought a dread burden down here-
On this night of all nights in the year,
Ah, what demon has tempted me here?
Well I know, now, this dim lake of Auber-
This misty mid region of Weir-
Well I know, now, this dank tarn of Auber,
This ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir."

Said we then, the two then,
"Ah, can it have been
That the woodlandish ghouls,
The pitiful, the merciful ghouls,
To bar up our way and to ban it
From the secret that lies in these wolds,
From the thing that lies hidden in these wolds,
Have drawn up the spectre of a planet
From the limbo of lunary souls,
This sinfully scintillant planet
From the Hell of the planetary souls..."

little friends..

friendlyghost fun & games!!

trapdoor links to the secret gallery...

ghost movie picks..

not necessarily in this order:
1 Dead Man
2 Notorious
3 Bringing Up Baby
4 It’s a Wonderful Life
5 A.I.
6 Pink Floyd/The Wall
7 The City of Lost Children
8 Orphans (Matthew Modine)
9 The Effect of Gamma Rays on
Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds
10 The Lord of the Rings Trilogy
11 The Curse of the Cat People
12 Pirates of the Caribbean 1, 2 & 3
13 Jan Svankmejer’s Alice
14 Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf?
15 Sybil
16 Edward Scissorhands
17 The Nightmare Before Christmas
18 A Tree Grows in Brooklyn
19 An Angel at My Table
20 Rear Window
21 The Wizard of Oz
22 Oliver!
23 King Kong (original)
24 Navigator: A Medieval Odyssey
25 Titus
26 The Swimmer
27 Monty Python & the Holy Grail
28 Sergeant York
29 A Streetcar Named Desire
30 The Little Princess (original)
31 Immortal Beloved
32 Life & Death
33 The Little Fugitive
34 Willy Wonka (both)
35 Endless Summer
36 Dead Poets Society
37 Silence of the Lambs
38 Instinct
39 Sleepy Hollow
40 Pollock
41 Days of Wine & Roses
42 Something Wicked This Way
Comes
43 James & the Giant Peach
44 Lemony Snickett’s Series of
Unfortunate Events
45 The Shining (original)
46 Harold & Maude
47 Psycho
48 The Road to Utopia (& others!)
49 Monkey Business (Cary Grant)
50 North By Northwest
51 Spider Baby
52 Golden Earrings
53 The Miracle Worker
54 The Neverending Story
55 A Clockwork Orange
56 Clash of the Titans
57 The Outsiders
58 Benny &Joon
59 The Whisperers
60 Angela’s Ashes
61 Willow
62 Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein
63 Polyester
64 Scrooged
65 Groundhog Day
66 PeeWee’s Big Adventure
67 The African Queen
68 Victor/Victoria
69 The Others
70 From Hell
71 Dreamchild
72 The Paleface
73 Another Woman
74 Warlock
75 Fanny & Alexander
76 One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
77 Duel
78 A Girl Named Sooner
79 A Christmas Story
80 Return to Oz
81 Harry Potter (movies)
82 Van Helsing
83 Don’t Look in the Basement
84 Toy Story
85 The Court Jester
86 Murder, He Says
87 Indiscreet
88 Creepshow
89 Mr Smith Goes to Washington
90 Harvey
91 Brainstorm
92 Ed Wood
93 Defending Your Life
94 The Bells of St. Mary’s
95 Going My Way
96 This Property is Condemned
97 Rebel Without a Cause
98 Labyrinth
99 Jabberwocky
100 Cheech & Chong’s Nice Dreams
101 Gone With the Wind
102 6th Sense
103 To Kill a Mockingbird
104 Troll
105 Small Soldiers
106 Jumanji
107 Mrs. Doubtfire
108 Gaslight
109 Take the Money and Run
110 The Old Man and the Sea
111 Hocus Pocus
112 Witches
113 Casablanca
114 What About Bob
115 The Godfather
116 The Deer Hunter
117 Raiders of the Lost Ark
118 Greystoke: Legend of Tarzan
119 Monty Python’s Meaning of Life
120 Eraserhead
121 Arsenic & Old Lace
122 Motel Hell
123 Dial M for Murder
124 The Other
125 The Chronicles of Narnia
126 Napoleon Dynamite
127 SOB
128 The Secret Garden
129 Apocalypse Now
130 Hide & Seek
131 Eternal Sunshine Spotless Mind
132 The Abandoned
133 Pan's Labyrinth
134 Kafka
135 One Hour Photo
136 Jack the Bear
137 Fur: Diane Arbus
138 Unforgiven
139 Dances With Wolves
140 Alice in Wonderland 2010
141 True Grit (2010)
142 The Wolfman (original & new)
143 Universal Monsters (originals)
144 The Road
145 The Woman in Black
146 Don't Be Afraid of the Dark
147 Dark Shadows
148 The Yellow Wallpaper
149 Paranorman
150 The Hobbit (all)
151 Frankenweenie
152 Oz the Great & Powerful
153 The Raven 2012
154 Snow White & the Huntsman
155 The Elephant Man
156 Hugo
157 Rabbit-Proof Fence
158 Mama
159 My Side of the Mountain 1969
160 Maleficent
161 God Bless Ozzy (bio)
162 The Book Thief
163 Wakefield
Gumby Adventures (original & new)
The Twilight Zone episodes (original)
The Outer Limits (original)
The Night Gallery
Davey & Goliath
Mr Rogers Neighborhood
Sesame Street (pre elmo!)
Little House on the Prairie
Monty Python’s Flying Circus
Mystery Science Theater 3000
Good Neighbors
SCTV
The Rockford Files
Fawlty Towers
Ripping Yarns
Metamorphosis (play)
The Glass Menegerie(play)
Death of a Salesman(play)
Absurd Person Singular(play)
Koyaanisquatsi
I, Claudius (miniseries)
The Chronicles of Narnia (miniseries)
Merlin (miniseries)
The Snowman (animated)
The Selfish Giant (animated)
Prokofiev's Peter & the Wolf 2006
Secret of Kells (animated)
Yellow Submarine (animated)
Watership Down (animated)
Peter Rabbit & Friends (animated)
Frog & Toad (animated)
Dr Seuss (animated shows)
Kroft shows (Land of the Lost, etc…)
Peanuts (animated shows)
Felix the Cat (animated cartoons)
The Oblongs (animated)
The Addams Family (original series)
The Munsters (original series)
The Phantom Creeps (serial)
Bill & Coo (live bird show)
The Sopranos (series)
Biggest Loser (series)
All Rankin/Bass shows (Mad Monster
Party, Daydreamer etc)
Little Rascals/Our Gang comedies
Deadwood (series)
Secrets of the Dead (series)
Mantracker (series)
Dual Survival (original series)
Estate of Panic (series)
Criminal Minds (series)
Two Fat Ladies (series)
History Detectives (series)
Oregon Field Guide (series)
Once Upon a Time (both series)
Oddities (series)
Odd Folks Home (series)
The Incredible Dr Pol (series)
Colbert Report (series)
Bates Motel (series)
Hannibal (series)
Longmire (series)
Treehouse Masters (series)
The Blacklist (series)
Life Below Zero (series)
Sleepy Hollow (series)
Dracula (series)
Portlandia (series)
The Walking Dead (series)
Breaking Bad (series)
Alaska: the Last Frontier (series)
American Horror Story (series)
Salem (series)
Penny Dreadful (series)
Chronicles of Lizzie Borden (series)
Grimm (series)
Fear of the Walking Dead (series)
The Killing (series)
The Fall (series)